I find there is no good way to create this collection. I’m breaking this collection up into periods that will be place in the Main Menu according to their respective times. This collection represents post Lifelines and the The Intellect Engineers (which is not written yet) to the time of, You are not Who or What You Think.
I expect to link in The Gatekeeper Collection, this The Wizard and the Gatekeeper collection followed by The Gatekeeper, Wizard, and the Elohim City collection. I should explain again that after Starlines II the notes are provided in a single thread.
At Lifelines (March 2015) Tuesday 2nd Session
…. At this time I felt a need to stay in F21 and absorb as much rest as possible. I was beginning to feel emotionally taxed in these environments. As I stood there resting an old man approached slowly on the familiar cobble path that was bordered with a mix of lush green grass. He wore a large hood that draped over his face such that I could not see his face. As he passed me he said, “We have much to discuss later….”, and he continued to walk away. As I watched him head into the distance I wondered what that meant.
Tuesday Evening Session
Following the retrieval I felt stunned for a long time – just mortally drained. I felt it must be time to go and so I let myself fall to get back to F23 and then into F21. Another way to describe that is I allowed my exhausted awareness to collapse thru the levels. Arriving in F21 I found myself, as if waking, lying down on the cobble path near the dwelling I had been seeing. I slowly stood up and still felt completely stunned, shocked by the previous experience, I leaned over and laid resting on the stone wall adjacent to the path feeling the relief of its warmth; trying to rest up. Then someone came up to me and said, “You need to stay here”. So I stayed there trying to regain my composure, some energy, and some sense of peace. I felt completely spent.
Then the old man I had seen previously on the path came along. As I looked at him seeing vaguely he pulled back his hood and I saw the long gray hair and beard apparently the Gatekeeper. He explained, “You must come back and we will talk”. Eventually I left and exiting to C1 I found myself in my CHCK unit utterly emotionally spent and my chest ached terribly.
Last Tuesday Evening Session
Again after another soul-retrieval I was totally maxed out; beginning to dread doing any more retrievals; just don’t have the energy left to do more…
During the exit when I got to F21 I still felt completely spent. The Gatekeeper and now Raphael were there and again there was the small stone dome shaped dwelling. They both rested their hands on me for a moment which seemed to steady me. Then the Gatekeeper said that I should come back here to rest. I looked over at the dwelling. It had a heavy wooden door and the arch over the doorway had some ivy growing on it. Then after a few moments I resumed my return.
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On one voyage, while passing thru F21….
From there I progressed to 21 which felt like home again. And now I was able to again make out the stone dwelling I saw while at TMI. I could feel the stonewall that ran along the path next to the dwelling. I was able to approach and open the dwelling’s door (no one was home). Looking inside there was a perfectly plain room with only the stone walls and rough stone floor. There was a table and a window with a great view of Abyssal Mountains there. It reminded me of a place I dreamt of decades ago; in that dream that place was my home. It was so good to find this place; like pieces were coming together for me.
During another trip…..
Eventually I got to focus 21. There was some struggle with having the sense that I fully arrived in F21. It was blank blackness here too. I looked around for the stonewall that adjoins the path adjacent to the dwelling I was hoping to find.
Then something spoke to me from behind my right shoulder, “Not what you expected?” I turned and saw the Gatekeeper standing on the path with the hooded robe I’ve seen him wear before (during Lifelines). I answered, “Grandfather, it is good to see you again”. “Why do you call me that”? the individual asked.
Then for a few moments I noticed the wall and stone dwelling having only a faint form. It was not there, yet in a way it was. I could feel the stonewall, but yet not feel it. Then as the Gatekeeper turn away he said, “We will talk again… “, as I watched him walking away on the cobbled stone path now appearing odd. Then I wondered, have I been wrong about this individual’s identity? He’s never actually said who he was. Who is this old man? Am I wrong about all this?
5/25/15. Who ‘is’ The Wizard?
On another session, while passing into F21…
At first it was difficult to become oriented in F21 but as soon as I felt consolidated I heard a voice on my right say, “I see you made it”. I turned and found myself looking at the old man that I’ve been encountering here. I did not call him grandfather this time and was now convinced this was not the Gatekeeper as I could perceive him more clearly.
The figure turned around and walked up the inclined cobbled walk to the heavy wooden door of the stone dwelling. As he went in I followed. Once inside I found myself in the familiar stone room with open air window viewing the mountains that I had seen before. In a moment we were both standing together looking out the window at an absolutely grand view of the Abyssal Mountain range.
Then the old man looked at me as if waiting for me to say something. After a moment he said, “Alright. I’ll say it for you. I am you”. “You are me?” I replied. “Yes… in this reality; You are you in your reality and I am you here”, he explained.
Things like this no longer surprise me but I was wondering how this worked so I asked, “So this is my place?” “No”, he answered, “This is my place, but you do have your own place in F27 as you call it. You haven’t been there yet, but you know the place I am referring to”, he explained.
I did recognized once that this place has a strong resemblance to a place I encountered in a dream decades ago and that place was my home in that dream. That made me wonder if there really was such a place for me somewhere. This place felt close to that but wasn’t quite it. The more I tried to focus on clearly understanding what was happening the more my chest ached. Then the wizard said, “Take that kyanite1 and lay it on your chest”. So on my physical body in meditation, I laid the piece as he directed on me and I immediately began to feel better.
I stood there thinking for a while as I looked out his window. Then he looked at me and said, “Why don’t you come out and say it”? I stammered, “You’re…. You’re a wizard?” With a hint of humor he answered, “Well there are many words one might use like that and all of them are wrong”. I continued looking out the window trying to figure this all out and then asked, “…so the beings that pass through these levels… this isn’t there reality”? The Wizard explained, “Think of realities as a rich forest. Some beings can pass through many of them as mist passes through the branches of the trees. Others maybe confined to live within the scope of one branch or tree – their reality”. After a bit I asked, “What about crystals, how are they present in these different levels?” He continued, “Just as there is a vast forest in this metaphor there is one ground level, a bedrock that supports all these structural places so to speak. They [the mineral structures] pervade and permeate as a result of the time they exist”.
For awhile I leaned with my back against the wall adjoining the window and looked out the open door to my right at the expanse I could see in that direction. He asked, “What troubles you”? “There are so many possibilities and directions I just don’t know how to come to think about any of it”, I replied. “You’re not happy in your reality?” he asked, and I answered, “There is so much suffering, pain, fear, and confusion in that world… I can’t stand seeing it and I can’t control the doubts and confusion that plagues my own mind”. The wizard said nothing in reply. It seemed that time was of no concern here. I felt in no hurry to form questions and no thought of when the hemi-sync session would end.
I returned to looking out the window with the Wizard but just noticed someone was entering the doorway, realizing it was Raphael. He walked in and at first I thought he looked displeased but as I focused on him he portrayed his general commanding and serious presence. He stood on the other side of the wooden table in the center of the room as I said, “Raphael! I am so glad to see you”, turning to face him; my back to the window. He seemed to acknowledge that in his usual quiet demeanor and it appeared he knew the nature of the conversation prior to walking in.
In response to my worries, doubts, and confusion Raphael said to me, “That will all change soon enough”. I didn’t know what this pertained to but I seem to have some inner sense that he was referring to the new phase. When would that be I wondered. After a time he turned to leave. As he stepped out the doorway he turned and said to me, “Remember pizza isn’t good for you”, as he left. In time I left also.
This brief passage occurred while passing thru on a journey…
I proceeded on through the levels and when I came to F21 I found myself at the Wizard’s dwelling as I’ve become accustom to. While getting perceptively oriented, I immediately noticed quite clearly the Gatekeeper. “Grandfather”, I said2, “Do you have words of wisdom for me”? “Be true and be not afraid”, is all he said. He asked me whether I wished to see the Wizard and I explained I had a task in 23. Then I moved on…
8/9/15 The Gatekeeper
I began my affirmation by calling out thanks to all those around me for the help I’ve received throughout my life: the protection, healings, messages, and visions not withstanding my insolence, anger, and more. I requested to speak with Uriel (who I just recently met) or any that would help me with understanding these events – those free of guile and deceit. Everything was absolutely still, darkness filled my field of view. I remained quiet, clear, watchful…and I waited.
Suddenly, before me appeared the looming image of several large angels; imposing, great in stature, and they stood directly in front of me. One was prominent, standing in the front and center of the group. I bowed and thanked them wondering how the answer I seek would be presented.
Then this angel stepped forward and he placed his right hand on my left shoulder. I felt him lift me up, feeling small in comparison to them. He drew closer, leaned forward and down to my face, still keeping his hand on my shoulder. Then he turned his head slightly to his left as if to look back at something as he extended his left arm with outstretch finger pointing to something behind the angels. I knew he was directing me to look in that direction and I as I looked I intuitively understood he was pointing to a light but I couldn’t see it.
This disturbed me, that the angel was directing me and in my clumsy perceptive abilities I couldn’t apprehend what he was showing me. I struggled with thamental state as he continued to point. He suddenly released me and then directed me to go in that direction, but the light he was referring to still eluded me.
I went blindly in that direction, facing mostly darkness thinking whatever it is it must be there. Soon I saw a pinhole of light, but it disappeared. Then after a moment again I could see the pinhole of light, and again it disappeared. I resolved to move forward into the darkness and continued to traveling blind into the dark in the direction where the small pinhole of light appeared and would vanished. Traveling like this a short distance I began to see a small bit of green appear where where the point of light had been appearing and in some moments I recognized a patch of green grass as if a small island of green existed in distant space. In a short time what became apparent was a small grassy island hovering in the darkness. I recognized that I had been here before; a place I was taken to long ago for an encounter with my mentors and my ‘entity’ parents.
When I reach the location I walked onto the grassy area and immediately recognized the Gatekeeper. Raphael and Ethereal were with him. Approaching them the Gatekeeper drew close to me place his hands on my shoulders and kissed me on the forehead. I asked him, “What is happening? What is the meaning of these encounters beyond F27 with the Elohim3 requiring my mind? I do not understand”.
The Gatekeeper replied, “It is a beginning. The start and preparation of a new phase or charge. It is like a piece of ground being cultivated for the seed. We are sorry that we cannot be clearer than this, but we are with you”. As we stood together I felt an encouragement, a reassurance, or an enabling but for a moment I wondered, what am I in league with? Putting that thought aside I replied to them, “And I am with you in this”. I suddenly sensed something of an inner understanding, something far from my normal mind, something that was just out of reach or just beyond my comprehension but beginning to grasp it.
I looked to my right and saw that Uriel was also there; a large imposing angelic creature with huge powerful wings, looking kind and wise in countenance. He smiled at me while standing silently as if observing as he held a book.
After a time with them I turned and began my return through the levels. I again saw the angels met earlier as if they were waiting. I greeted then but continue back and soon felt I was walking back into the Earthly.
Saturday Evening 10/10/15: The Gatekeeper Explains
At my session affirmation I clarified I wished to contact those who would help me understand my relationships – the meaning of these associations and to inquire about the Source.
At the start of this session I felt more energy and a clarity of purpose. Arriving in F21 I waited to see what environment would emerge. Then I faintly saw an impression of the Gatekeeper waiting for me at the Wizard’s dwelling entrance. I was aware of the others but in a very limited and questionable manner. In a few moments the pathway and stonewall near the dwelling seemed clearer to me. I accepted that it was a valid perception and then I walked up the short walk to the entrance, following the Gatekeeper and others in. At that time what was weird was it appeared that we all sort of swooshed in thru the entrance as vague phantoms or smoky wisps; definitely not as if we had walked in.
Once inside I went to the far side of the wooden table as I have in that past. I was only just dimly aware of the Wizard. I had only a very faint awareness of Raphael which was quite vague and impressed me as lacking ‘realness’. This made me question whether Raphael was actually there.
Ethereal did not appear personified as I have seen her before rather she appear as a wispy apparition that was at times was in the dwelling and other times she appeared as if she was just outside the window hovering in space. She did not appear ghostly but she did appeared to be made of some other substance than that of the dwelling’s reality framework, or as if she was a projection. The Gatekeeper was on my left seated as usual.
After studying those perceptions I turned to the Gatekeeper and explained that I wished to know more about the meaning of our associations, why I was meeting these particular individuals in all these experiences. I added that I did not understand why I was meeting the Wizard who is somehow myself yet not myself in this focus level reality. After I explained that I didn’t know what to expect since things were very faint and at times I wondered how much of this I was creating myself from memory but instantly the Gatekeeper answered me with remarkable clarity.
“You are meeting the Wizard – as you call him – so that you have connections to foreknowledge, the future (sensing this was a mechanism). Although it was your non-human parents that nurtured the drive in you to seek what you call God, I was the one throughout your life who ensured that your particular philosophical 4 mind was developed”, he explained.
He continued,“Raphael will be with you as a guide through your journeys. Your experiences with seeking and finding healing enables you to heal others [I began to understand]. Ethereal is here to help you with power. She brings the feminine component of power to balance your masculine sense of it. She is integrating that for you, in you now, this is why some say she is in you yet you feel that she is outside you. She is part of you in a sense – your sense of embrace – your connection to her is the other side of the power that is in you now. This is also why you, as you know, no longer find the Creative Force outside yourself, but you are now aware it is something inside you – something of your own.
You may think of her such as a goddess of Life – an aspect of the Creative Force. We are all in you working together, a part of you, inside and outside you (composite being5). At times I found the image went blank as I absorbed or recognized what was being said but once I did that and settled down, waiting for the images, the images/communications would reacquire”.
Following that I asked, “Why are we here in focus 21, at this place, meeting this way? I don’t understand what the nature is of this reality…why it appears as it does?” Here too the Gatekeeper answered directly, “This place is a confluence of energies, spaces, and times that pertain to your future and a greater future. This dwelling and the Wizard are part of your future, part of what you will become in time – the pattern. Here… are potentials, the flux of things transpiring at a deep level”.
For a brief moment I wondered about creatures such as angels to which the Gatekeeper immediately responded to my thoughts saying. “There are many that have existed from eternities to bring about this place and time… to continue moving things to the future. As you are working with intentions of will for events and solutions, we are all focusing our intentions as well. This place – or reality – is a representation of the fluence of all…the emerging of realities to come”.
“And the Source… What “is” the Source? What are its’ purposes?” I asked. Answering, “The Source is All, The Origin. Like you, the Source or God as you call it, has intentions… these are unfathomable – because of the depth and breath of the Source – its vastness. That is why it is unfathomable. You may have glimpses. From the Source the nature of all things are bound in dualities. Do not trouble your mind with considering darkness the Source is as light. Consider only that – the Source is beyond duality”, he explained.
Then I asked, “And what about love – the Source as love”? Clarifying the Gatekeeper explained, “There are emotions that humans use in thinking of the Source that are approximations that represent the Source [to them]. The true nature of the Source is beyond such words”.
Once again I found I was blacking out of the vision when trying to absorb the clear and precise flow of information I was receiving. When it was clear all that could be said was said I found we were all quietly together and I understood the pieces to this puzzle that were beginning to take shape. After a time I stood up, bowed to the group, and thanking them for giving me this contact – the flow of understanding and then I walked to the doorway. Just as I stepped out immediately the hemi-sync narration commenced the exit count down – again; perfect timing. I hoped to remember the encounter and seemed assured somehow that I would.
11/1/2015 – The Galaxy: Times & Seasons
While passing through F21…
Then something began to emerge, as if out of smoke or out of the darkness itself. As the image continued to become apparent I recognized a familiar scene from my early experiences in F21. I was drawn into this image, as before I found myself flying high over what I call the Abyssal Mountains, the structure that forms the separation in focus 21 between “here” and “there” as some put it. As before I was able to see the horizon of that land in the distance viewing it from high above, but then I found myself rising much higher above it. This happened before only when Raphael would appear in sessions and drag me off past F21 to wherever it was we went.
This continued and I saw the image regress far below me as I felt myself moving ever higher while also finding myself changing – any sense of self-form disappearing – a very distinct and strange feeling. It’s hard to state whether I was becoming more diffuse, changing in frequency, transforming in some way into something else, or who knows what. I was not in control of any of this. This motion continued and seemed to have a course of its own. In time I felt abstracted, thin and vague, reduced to some very basic state of being I had never known before and then I detected something was there.
I attempted to call out, to address whatever had taken control of me. I acquired an awareness of ‘something’ but I didn’t know what it was so I offered a greeting and requested the entity clarify its nature or form for me so that I could understand it. I waited. For a moment I saw in the darkness several vague forms as if in a group or a row and I noticed I was getting closer to them. Then they disappeared, evaporating in the darkness but with that I became clearly aware of them – mind to mind.
I inquired if it was possible to explain to me who or what they were. Then I heard, “[We are] without name [or word] but you may understand us as – an energy field. We see you understand that notion”, they stated. In that moment my mind grasp several thoughts or applications regarding examples fields and found myself contemplating them. Then I again greeted them seeking to maintain a strong sense of courtesy.
“What is the nature of your purpose or role in your state?” I inquired. “We exist from the earliest [times] regulating – to use your notion”, they replied. “If you understand my thoughts please perceive my notion of god [the Source]. Are you part of an early purpose… What is it that you regulate?” I asked. “Your concept of god is crude and inaccurate. As it is… we may say yes, we regulate times, energies, spaces…”, they explained. I abruptly realized something about where I was, or that I was far beyond focus level 21 in some space that had its’ own time or lack of time comparatively. I also recognized how I felt, a feeling of not being confined by time, far beyond the times or realities that I have previously known.
This was truly new, it was beyond my first experience with the time transcending being that only referred to himself as “Friend”. I asked whether beings such as what I would call angels would be aware of them [energy field being(s)]. “Yes, beings such as the ones you are thinking are aware of our times and the associated changes that pertain”, they answered.
I explained, “In my world times are sometimes defined as seasons that are dictated by our planet’s orbit around our star. Are the times you speak of similar? Some of my kind also speak of times as defined by stars or constellations of stars…”. For that moment there was no response although I felt firmly in contact with the entity field which to my surprise was even bothering to address me at all, so I waited. I continued to inquired whether it was possible for them to convey to my mind further understandings of their function. Again there was only a stillness for those moments.
Suddenly I sensed something that “resembled” a discussion in the energy field is how I would describe it – something I sensed in the field, cross-communication, and next in my mind I saw our galaxy realizing it had a field of its own. With that I sensed that I was changing again even further beyond myself. Next I saw something like our galaxy’s aura (some may choose to call it that I guess) but there is no word for what I perceived in our language.
While looking at this ‘aura’ – or glow I’ll call it – that was all around our galaxy I understood that times were establish as if by a calendar (of purposes, stages, meaningful seasons) and that these have been ordained so to speak by something within the galaxy itself – a self governance perhaps although I don’t know whether that is a natural thing or a result of some organization of higher consciousnesses, or an organization of evolved cultures. I also understood, or saw, that all galaxies possess this although I could not comprehend what “this” was. I thought or understood that the particular field entities I was meeting were somehow involved in this governance process for our galaxy, although I don’t know that that limiting thought – our galaxy – as a focused local purpose is correct.
After sometime I began to feel myself returning to the state in which the energy field and I were again conversing mind-to-mind. For a brief moment I wondered whether any of this had anything to do with the “season” I have been encountering. As if responding to my thought the field beings replied, “You are encountering [experiencing something of] the effect in a [very] small manner. [That is] more in the sense of becoming aware of the current [flux] of change and that which approaches”.
Given how they volunteered this information to me I began to thank them for allowing me this contact to which they responded, “You are among the first of your kind that we have encountered [being of satisfying interest to us]”. As I found I ran out of questions and that we were on good term I found we were drifting apart so to speak without any sense of good-bye.
After several moments I found I was stuck in this new state without much ability to change it or give it direction. I began to struggle with this trying to assess how to proceed – how to get back. I tried to force images of places in F21 to ground myself to that level but was unsuccessful. After a number of attempts I tried again to focus on the Wizard’s stone dwelling since I had a strong memory of it and found I was in state with some sort of extension beyond the reality framework of the dwelling. I tried to appear in the Wizard’s dwelling but had no consolidation control. It felt as if I was spatially inside and outside his dwelling as if I was in different phases of whatever.
I wanted to reach out to the Wizard and I sense he was trying to reach out to me; trying to grasp each other’s hands so to speak, however, that did not resolve my problem. I found I had slipped back outside that level again. I became aware of the Gatekeeper and sought to strongly focus on him and I could see he was aware of me noting that he was grinning broadly.
Suddenly I sensed I was spatially back outside the dwelling seeing the Gatekeeper there waiting for me. I sought to make myself ‘feel’ my way along the stonewall outside the dwelling using that to hold myself to that level but when I made it back inside the dwelling I found my form/identity was still that of some enlarged cloud, or a field of my own is what I would call it. I did notice though that I was becoming able to localize in place, yet I still felt in some other phase that was not coincident with that particular place.
I thought to focus on taking hold of the wooden table in the dwelling to keep myself there. The Gatekeeper conveyed to me that I was in a state of pure something – spirit (using that word loosely since I don’t know any word for it). Over a time I found I was becoming more defined, as some form, but still embodying a region in and about the dwelling. At least I got to a point where I could again converse with the Gatekeeper and had some sense of being localized.
He said nothing more as I found in my current state I could not contact or ground with Earth and I recognized I still was not back to the form I generally have in focus 21; the Gatekeeper seemed unconcerned and only smiled. I tried to assert more attention on this issue of form and began to put more effort into dealing with it, becoming slowly alarmed at the predicament.
Then Devenoir appeared and instinctively I reached out something like an appendage to him. He reached back so that my left appendage was touching his right hand. I felt the connection as if this was somehow going to aid me in translating back. I also became aware, having epiphanies of his role which I have known, that he is specifically assign to assist me in some transformational project. Next Ethereal appear and she also reached. Responding I reached my right appendage out to her and she placed her left palm against my right palm forming. With the help of the two I found I was beginning to change, take on or reacquire some form and I sense something else familiar returning to me. We stayed in that state for awhile during which I felt I was consolidating back into being me while having these epiphanies of the two in this contact with them.
As I became more acquired to my previous form(s) I returned my thoughts to those in the dwelling and thought I was ready to go. As I turned to leave, immediately the narration began the count down from focus 21 and I found that I was now able to mentally focus on the reverse process of returning; finding myself stepping back down through the levels.
Back in about focus 15 I reacquire my resonant energy balloon and verified its shape encompassing the surrounding stones as it felt important to include accessing them in my attachment to the Earth system.
Finally back in focus 12 I realized I was surprisingly refreshed with a new sense of calm, attitude, or patience with the natural conflicts of daily life in the Earth state. Recovering in focus 10 I found myself clearly reconsolidating in my body as I found it was buzzing and quite warm. Arriving in C1 I felt ready to go on with life again.
Tuesday 12/8/15: That Which One Seeks to Understand
Tuesday morning I woke up and wondered about my many questions. What is actually being answered? What’s with my inability to grasp – or is it to accept – the explanations? I wondered what to do about this and everytime I considered this during the day the thought occurred to me that the Gatekeeper would tell me so that evening I decided to go to focus 21 and inquire.
In my session as I began to extend in all directions I heard an old Christian song in the distance…what was that, and then I wondered who is “the Lord”? There was a time when a notion of God was simple to me, now however it seems God is an complete abstraction, an infinity away; that I am engaging with layers of being, various types of being that I don’t find I can turn to. What can I really turn to for tangible help?
In my session I made my case to all those around me concerning what it was I intended. Suddenly I encountered a discussion or explanation of things but I didn’t know who was speaking to me. Whatever it was it had lucid clarify in its flow of information. From there the conversation began to go deep, mostly in terms of the blunt truth of things that I do know.
What I heard went something like: ”…From the first moment of time, the first self expression – the utterance of the Source, this resulted in the expressive creation of being that represent the thoughts and the intentions of the Source. The expressions and intentions of the Source continued and continues which results in yet greater extension of being and consciousness. There are specific energies, beings, that carry specific aspects of this expansion. They are uncontaminated – beings not of material form, representing the true intention and expression of … the image of – the Source. As duality arose, the signal that resides and permeates all may be viewed as a mixture; some aspects acting as a destructive interference others as constructive.
The manifestation of energy beings in this energetic pattern are manifold, carrying and fulfilling intentions of the Source, forming the image of the Source itself. There are many names and cultural structures used to illustrated this by mankind and this extension reaches into members of mankind as some cultures have attempted to describe it. The origin and nature of such beings are no more alien then the reality that permeates all. You correctly seek God”.
When this monologue ended I thought to myself, now that sounds exactly like something Devenoir would say, and I smiled to myself . Angels – ya gotta love these creatures. I guess this is his explanation for who the Lord “is”, I accepted.
Later when I arrived in F21 ‘something’ stopped me and ask whether I felt ready for this and truly wanted to know. I was not able to recognized who or what was addressing me. Then after giving it some thought I replied, “I do not believe whoever I have been relating to would allow me to harm myself with such knowledge and if they are not stopping me now, then yes I want to know…. What I am? Are the entities saying they are my parents truly my parents? What are they? What’s the deal with wanting my mind, but not explaining what is being done with it?” In response, whatever it was that was addressing me said, “Much will be hard to absorb”.
I puzzled for awhile wondering how to find the Gatekeeper and suddenly I found myself at the bench under the lamppost, where we first met in F21. I was unconvinced that this wasn’t a memory load emerging but as I sat down next to him he began to draw in the fine gravel and sand about our feet with his staff. This seem to lead my attention and as I studied the things he was drawing I realized it was him.
I ask, “Grandfather, what is being done with my mind when these beings (beyond F27) request it?” “You cannot understand that yet”, he replied, “but you may think of it like a cultivation, as a gardener cultivates a garden before planting a seed. Or think of it as a foundation one first builds before building a structure. They are preparing your mind so that in time you may receive the information you seek and the knowledge you will need”. I asked, “Is this preparation for knowledge I will receive when I die, or will this occur in my lifetime”? “It will be is in your lifetime on Earth”, he answered.
We discussed things deep, seemingly simple at the time, but unfathomable now. At this time it seems all mixed together and difficult to explain. I then ask, “What am I”? “You are an energy being”, he replied, “You are not from some species from some other planet [to clear that up for you]”.
As I tried to understand I realized I did not have the basic framework to understand what he explained. Numerous aspects where elucidated and I understood this to be the most basic introduction to an continuing process, the reality of which was, and is, very difficult to grasp though a sense of apprehending the truth of it was clear. There was a heavy sense of the gravity to the explanation which felt ponderous even in its childlike form. I then found I was became mentally worn out, tired, and the Gatekeeper faded away. I felt I needed to leave due to an exhaustion that came with the recognition of the scale of even this small bit of information. It seems simple in writing, however there was nothing simple about the fullness of meaning and purport he gave me.
When I returned to C1 I was blank and numb, not knowing what to think or do. I found that I was deeply troubled by the explanation.
This concludes this period of the Gatekeeper & Wizard Collection. A new collection will be provided concerning the following period. This is done in order to maintain some chronology in the Main Menu.
- The Wizard was referring to the 1lb bar of blue kyanite I have. This stone I found treated energy/emotion deficits from soul-retrievals. I also (thereafter) would take this kyanite piece to TMI as first-aid for myself or others at the courses. The blue kyanite has successfully treated two other students at TMI w/ deficits resulting from psychic strains in hemi-sync sessions. I have not encountered others that needed it. ↩
- The Gatekeeper is not my grandfather. I at times call him this out of respect. ↩
- Elohim and The Intellect Engineers – post Lifelines. ↩
- Philosophy – from the Greek literally: love of wisdom. By definition, the study of nature, causes, or principles of reality, knowledge, or values based on logical reasoning. ↩
- Though we humans think of ourselves as individuals and objects as individual things, among collectives like the Shepherds of Creation and others, plural collectives are not uncommon. One may think loosely of them as similar to flocks of birds or schools of fish that move in unison; collectives of individuals that work together with common mind and purpose. ↩