I wasn’t going to write this down as it seemed just too incredible. The absolutely unbelievable sense of the journey just made me angry and now I feel this has set me back again; just as I had a little confirmation of my experiences and was beginning to be persuaded that there was some truth to all this I am again push beyond what I can accept. I decided however, to write this now because of how clear the experience was and that the content suggests there will be more follow up journeys.
Following my NeiGong and ShenGong meditations, I proceeded to a manual meditation without any clear idea of what I was trying to accomplish other than to test the effectiveness of my QiGong mediation prep-session. I immediately noticed that the whole environment was different; things were mixed, distorted, and energetic. I went through F12 and F15 hardly stopping to clarify those environments. When I got to F21 things were more steady.
At my mnemonic in focus 21 I thought to use my staff and so I experimented by pointing it in various directions checking whether my perception was improved and this appeared to work. I was a little surprised by the appearance as the increased perceptive information gave F21 a notably different feel, less apparition-like – more real in three dimensional detail.
As I considered this the Wizard came out to visit me. I tried to communicate with him but it seemed we just weren’t connecting clearly. Since I didn’t have any clearly specific questions for him I wasn’t surprise by this or concerned. One problem I did have was a generally bad attitude in this meditation that was unformed perhaps because there was no clear affirmation goal here.
Then it occurred to me while facing him to do something that I recently thought of. I took hold of his staff as he was holding it thinking this may help me share ‘being’ with him; after all he’s suppose to be me. I could clearly feel and see our hands together grasping the staff but other than the clear view of our hands on the staff there was no sense of unity with him and still no answers, guess this doesn’t mean anything.
Suddenly then, hovering over the ground on my right appeared a bright white light. When I looked at it there appeared a female in the light I thought. She was a few feet above the ground hovering as if weightless. The brilliant white light appearance made her form difficult to clearly perceived. As I considered this sight it became more clear that there was a feminine form in the light who had something that resemble wings but these wings were flowing, making the wing’s shape hard to identify – more like the moving fins of a fish as it holds its position.
Then this light being called down to me, “He cannot answer you! The two of you are one”, so I let go of the wizard’s staff. The apparition reminded me as if some other breed of angel but clearly did not look like any I’d had seen before, so buried in light; never seen anything like it.
I then turned and addressed this individual hovering in the light saying, “Who are you”? “I am a messenger”, she replied as she then directed me to follow her. With that said she turned and took flight and so I followed as we headed out over the landscape of F21. As we traveled I was surprised by the landscape we flew over. It reminded me of places in F27. We traveled for some distance and came upon a structure below us – an obelisk, and she stopped near it.
I had never seen anything like this before and certainly nothing like this in focus 21. The structure had some geometric design carved into it and near the bottom perhaps some symbol that was hard to distinguish. The light being then informed me, “This is a place where realities have been pinned to this state”. I then realized she brought me here specifically…to show me this. I studied the object wondering what reality this was connected to. Immediately she state as if knowing my thought, “There are many realities, but this one is connected to your world (did she mean Earth or my personal world?)”, as I understood there was a system of obelisks.
I continued to study the object and looking into it many ideas clearly came to my mind as visual glimpses of events happening at this time around the world. Then she added further, “You may command future events in that world from here”. I wondered a bit and then commanded that the dead mouse in my RV would be no more, and without difficulty the odor of that thing should go away! There I thought; that will be a good test for this structure. The messenger said nothing. (later i did find there was no dead mouse and fixed a gas leak)
I then looked at her and more seriously I asked, “I can command anything?” “Yes”, she replied. I looked back at the obelisk and began to consider possible changes but stopped each thought as it occurred not allowing it to slip forth and said to her, “I cannot command these things; I do not know the consequences of the changes I may make. I do not have the wisdom to redirect events”. To which she reiterate to me, “You may command as you choose”, and that was all she offered.
I thought to myself, really – that’s a bit powerful; and after considering that for a time I turned my thoughts to the Elohim city. I asked the hovering agent whether the (different) city I encountered in F21 a couple years ago while at TMI was also the Elohim city and she clarified for me that it was not. “There are many realities there [in F21]”, she stated. Then as if knowing my thoughts the messenger turned and began to lead me to the Elohim City I presumed.
After a short journey we arrived at the forest barrier near the Green Wall where I have been approaching the City. As I stood at the edge of the forest with this entity brightly hovering she called out to me, “My name is Yurael”. “Uriel?! Now I know this is just complete fantasy. You are not Uriel!”, I retorted strongly. She then instantly but patiently countered, “I am not Uriel, I am Yurael, and whenever you are here you may call me and I will assist you”. This silenced me as I recognized the difference of name and paused as I considered this being’s availability. I also considered the clarity of the name and sought to memorize its so I would remember her name when I returned, visualizing its spelling mentally. How can this possibly be I wondered and then after thanking her I turned to enter the forest.
I continued on and soon passed through the Green Wall. Entering the City I found there were faint apparitions of what seemed a few individuals. One image I thought was a member of the tribe previously met, and I also thought I was seeing the young complex thought-form that appeared with a princess-like quality. Thinking I would not engage them I looked around and noticed something like a pedestrian walk made of perfectly laid paving bricks that lead away to my right. As I considered what to do or where to go the young female thought-form appeared near me.
I turned to her as she appeared to be waiting for me and I said, “Is there a place I may go that will increase my knowledge and understanding for developing my being?” “Yes”, she replied and turning she lead me into the City. Soon a stone tower came into view. It did not seem like the one we were in before; that tower I did not see clearly at all and so I wasn’t sure. This one however, appeared quite clear to me. I thought this tower was smaller in diameter then the other was just my guess based on how things felt.
She lead me to a door at the base of the tower and I entered. Here too I saw clearly as I walked up the staircase that spiraled upward around the tower’s interior wall. Up I went carefully examining my steps surprised at the detail. I came to the top level and emerged upward from a doorway in the tower’s floor. This room felt smaller than the tower I was in when I first met the princess-like thought-form but here too I could see this room clearly whereas in the first meeting I was mostly aware of looking out from the tower and our discussion. I began to think this must be some other place.
In this room, about twenty feet in diameter, there was a small table near the far wall and a large book was on it. The young women directed me to the book and I walked up to it to examine it. The book was large, the size of a very large text book, perhaps five or six inches thick bound in thick sculpture leather. There was no writing on the cover which had a slight vagueness. I opened it and quickly flipping through the pages I could see no writing.
Then an individual on my left that I did not notice earlier said, “Use those”, as he pointed to a pair of glasses near the edge of the table. I thought to myself, right – magic glasses; like I’m suppose to believe this crap as I looked at this individual addressing me. He appeared as an older man and looking official. He appeared to be dressed like some sort of civil ministering (chamberlain) advisor from premodern times I thought, but this was pure conjecture on my part.
I turned my attention back to the book which appeared blank to me, or at least I could not discern any text or images The minister then said, “You are of noble birth. This book is for you; it contains information of your future…. One understands the present, by knowing the future”. This struck me as odd but then I realized that this was true. One understands why the present is the way it is, not only as a result of past events, but also as the present preparation needed for some intended purposes in the future. Yet understanding that, the book still was impenetrable to me. I grew frustrated with this continued game. I come here seeking information only to be given cryptic fantasy. I honestly stated that I came here looking for information that would help me understand and I get this. It seemed I was venting this complaint.
Then a bright spherical-like light shown high above me and looking up I saw thru the roof to the sky apprehending this was some presentation of an Elohim observing. I looked up to it/them and said angrily, “Why do you do this? I come for answers, understandings, and I am given games that actually tell me nothing”. But then I allowed my mind to be open for communication with the light above thinking there may be some explanation for all this but received nothing. The appearance of the being above me only made me more angry at how crazy this is. Typical I thought, looking for real answers and get nothing but more empty delusions that lacks substantive detail.
I looked back at the book again, trying harder to find something in it wondering what trick was to reading this. As I flipped through the pages, one had an illustration of a large group of dragons in flight. Flipped through more pages, another image was of some unfamiliar place. Then I thought to look to the front of the book for something I could know and test, but I couldn’t make anything out on the front pages as they appeared blank. This is all crazy I thought, my imagination is just running loose. Then fed-up, I turned and headed to the stairs, descended them to leave.
Near the Green Wall I began to look for the light to exit but could not find it. I was angry with the complete delusion of all this and again looked for the light. I had no patience to exit through the focus levels but had the feeling that I could not just leave. I struggled with this for a few moments not sure what the resistance was. Then after a bit, thinking I had enough of this nonsense, I forced myself hard to break back to C1 – screw the orderly return.