Post Starlines II (Nov 2017-Dec 2017)

Getting Back from Starlines:

10/26/17

I realize however, I do know there is truth to the focus levels themselves; whatever they are. I mean, I’ve tested this. Something ‘is’ there. So today I thought I’d to go to the Obelisk and work on my intentional targets – I can do that if nothing else. But then I wondered if the Obelisk structure also exists in F42 as a harmonic similar to the City of Light. Since I haven’t been doing any meditations or anything lately I thought to use the Starlines 2 take-home track for this attempt.

Once I got to the Obelisk in F42, it ‘seemed (kinda)’ I did make contact with the Obelisk itself, but I couldn’t reach or do anything with my targets. I called to Yurael, but got no reply. It was like there was a barrier, and then I thought that I must be too far outside the ELS to do this; maybe I have to be in F21. I considered that to effect the physical systems in the ELS I can’t be this far removed – whatever distance ‘is’; at least I can’t. So I resolved to return to this work there (F21) on behalf of the physical later, but now I thought while I am here I’d try and visit my suite at Alpha Squared (F42).

When I arrive at my F42 mnemonic mounted on my suite door, I was surprised to find Tellaidian 1 standing next to me in the hall. I turned and greeted him. Then he surprised me; rather then walking down the hallway to his conference room he said to me, “Let’s go in and talk”. So I opened my suite door for him and offered he first enter walking past me through the doorway into the suite. As I was about to follow him in I was surprised by how much shorter he seemed to me now. I have always found he was shorter, I guess this was just more apparent to me for some reason.

Once inside he paused and then he turned to me saying, “Calm……. You must be calm. Calm….tranquil as a cloud”, and I began to understand what he was telling me. “Let us assist you [at long range]?”, he asked. “Yes, I would welcome your assistance”, I said. Then he lead me to enter my calm as he commented, “Always the one for truth [you are]. Now stop….. cease striving….. Cease frustration with incompleteness”.

After a time of practicing calm with him Tellaidian added, “This [time of frustrate struggle] is an opportunity”. “An opportunity”, I asked incredulously? “Yes. To learn transcendence”, he explained. “To transcend ‘what’ “, I asked? “To transcend the physical – to ‘be’ both [physical and non-physical]”, he explained. And I recognized the task, tho I have no faith in myself to be able to do anything about this. It is impossible to be this with so much uncertainty.

[November] I can’t go back. This is insane.

11/20/17 I haven’t really considered going back. Its just too crazy. What do I do with these thoughts?Why must my mind thrash through this every moment of every damn day? But then today for some unknown reason i felt the connection. It’s trying to turn me. I… I think I’m ready to try again; to keep going. And today I saw clearly how to raise the energy to do it, knowing Tellaidian should be there to help. Is it faith I need?

The Formless: 11/22/2017

Yesterday and today I went back to my QiGong charging exercises. I haven’t done anything in weeks other than work at the obelisk. I don’t know that this will work but I charged yesterday and today I did two charging meditations. Then off-hand I wondered what would happen if I tried to go back now. Can I even do it anymore? It seems so far, so impossible, but I decided to go see what would happened although I really didn’t expect anything would come of this. I’m too rusty.

This session became long and detailed. I can’t bring all this back:

At focus 12 I really didn’t haven’t much awareness, but when I went to place my hand on my visual mnemonic to focus 15 which is an elevator’s control panel on which I press the button for the 15th floor, from behind me a women’s hand reached over mine and guided my hand to the controls. I felt and also saw a women’s arm cradling my arm, again as if someone was behind me guiding the motion of my arm. Then I knew at once it was Ethereal. She said nothing, but I felt her as she embraced me from behind; welcoming me back. After I pressed the button, she removed my hand from the controls and guided my hand to my chest as she held her hand over my hand covering my heart. I felt her there and a moment later, she was gone as a wisp of cloud blown past me.

Then going through the levels nothing particularly happened; I stayed focused and came to my special place in 27 (SP27) which was dark inside. I walked in slowly and went to my window. There I removed the cloth that covers the labradorite sphere and began accessing the energy conduit to charge the sphere and myself. To my surprise, I found I was able to charge myself and the sphere to that of a white light as I did at Starlines II. I did one bounce to EC27 mostly because I wanted to be there. Then I left for F34/35.

In 34 it was blackness. There was no awareness at all. You didn’t really think this would work did you, I thought to myself, so then I decided to go to V8 and charge the crystal there for whoever may be trying to use it. Again drawing upon the energy conduit I charged that crystal to a white light and continued sustaining myself. After some moments I decided that was enough and left for Alpha Squared (AS42). Once there I walked in slowing hoping to consolidate my dim perceptions. I greeted the receptionist and strolled into the main hall (Again, another creature that I am hard pressed to describe; not even going to try).

I went to the elevator function and used it just to enjoy being there. When I exited the lift onto my level I looked toward Tellaidian’s conference room, lounge I guess one could call it, which is on my level and saw it was busy inside. I didn’t know what to do, where I should go, and I was in no hurry. Then for no particular reason I went to Tellaidian’s large conference room. Walking down the two steps into the large lounge-like room I saw Tellaidian and wandered over next to him. I came to stand on his right side and said, “Master Tellaidian”, in a sort of formal greeting. He acknowledged me and I decided to quietly stand there and observe the activities. Then after a moment, although he seemed busy with others, Tellaidian turned to me and touching my arm he said, “Wait”, and so I continued to wait as he directed.

After a time, I don’t know how long, Tellaidian turned to me and said, “We go”. He then led the way and I walked with him. It was as if we walked right through the space station wall into blackness. I kept my focus on him and in time I saw his crew. He didn’t need to direct me, I knew he led me there to join with his crew though I just couldn’t image what would actually happen. As I approached his crew I paused and greeted each one; then I joined the circle with them. Before we started I took a moment to thank each one for whatever we were going to do. Then I looked into their minds and saw we were beginning. I readily joined energy with them with the intention of raising them as well. The circulating light started ringing through us as it had during Starlines 2.

Then I saw something like a great wall of dark black water as if it was a large cliff looming before us in the distance, failing to pour down. There was nothing but this immense wall perhaps 50’ high of dark featureless water. The crew instructed me to go up and as I did I found I could see that the wall was the beginning of what looked to be a sea. As I raised up over this cliff of water, spanning out before me I saw a great body of dark black water; like looking out at the ocean. On its surface there was a myriad of small waves frolicking about as if in a gentle wind and there was a white light that reflected off the sparkling tops of the waves that were not yet whitecaps. It was like seeing a clear bright moonlight reflecting brilliantly off the surface of black ocean as far as I could see into the distance, yet there was no moon. There was only this expanse of black sea with white light brightly illuminating the wave crests on its surface. Then I felt I was drifting forward or drawn over this sea and I embarked over this sea toward an utterly black horizon.

The following conversation was lengthy and exhausting and completely clear as I now tried to remember part of it.

In time there was no sea, only blackness. I wondered where I was and then I heard, “You are with us”. I asked, “Who am I with?” as the signal did not have the mind blowing presence as with the Ancients. They answered, “We serve the Ancients. You would consider us as facilitators”.  I greeted them and ask, “Where am I”? “This is not a place, nor is it a state” they began to explain. I was puzzled by what was left if this was neither a place nor a state, and they relied, “You may consider this to be energy without form; the background – the foundation of all”. Thinking this was not Source itself I asked, “No forms? How can that be?” “Consider your notion of space”, they responded, “You have this notion, a form of an idea, yet there is no form of structure that you need to understand the notion…..[or think] as [a] potential, that has not yet acted”. I began to get the idea.

They continued, “This is the origin of intentions… purpose. Here forms, intentions,…purposes are conceived, enunciated, directed – the creative; the inspirational. That which is direction and motivation arises from here”. “Motivation comes from you?” I asked. “There are purposes we intend. That inspiration is carried forth [in the non-physical and physical]. Most all carries out our purpose motivated in ways not knowing why, nor is that needed to be known. There are others, that support our purpose that ‘know’ the inspiration comes from this.

“Why am I here? How is it that ‘I’ would be in a place like this?” I asked and they explained, “This is intended to allow you to understand, apprehend; this allows a greater range of purpose to be carried out – to be accomplished; to know and apprehend the inspiration of the Source [as you call it]. More is possible as one knows this”. “Does that include to convince me?”, I bluntly asked. ‘It is’ both – to convince and not convince”, they stated. I then continued, “I don’t understand the purpose of that. How can one purposely intend opposing effects? I do not see how intending to convince and not convince me is a purpose to do anything,” to which they factually replied, “We did not say it ‘is’ our intention to ‘do’ either”, and I understood the nuance of what they were stating.

Over time I began to feel fatigued and had a repulsion to the ‘place’; a wanting to leave though I force myself to stay. At times this repulsion was very strongly. Apparently knowing this they explained to me, “It is not natural for you to be here given your form while there is no form [here]”.

I then injected into the conversation, “I’m told my father is from here”, to which they replied, “Yes; [an Ancient] the notion of you was conceived here. It is rare, but there are others…as you. You have been brought back”.

{This conversation had a great deal of clear detail in the conversation as there appeared to be no limit in time needed to helping me understand. There was much use of nuance in phrasing to help me get the notions I think, but I just can’t bring it all back. This is a fraction of the discussion}

There was one moment in the conversation, I don’t remember when, that I wondered if some would consider this heaven, but it certainly would NOT be heaven to any created thing. I also considered briefly if some might wonder how ‘God’ fits into this, but that word appeared to have no meaning whatsoever here, other than this may be the ‘working will’ of God, if one insisted on such terms.

After a time they announced, “You may leave now”. I thanked them but they retorted, “We do not need to be thanked…. We do not need appreciation. There is nothing we need [or require from you]”. When I ‘turned’ to leave I again saw the expanse of black sea before me; the sparkle of light dancing on its surface. The return felt like an impossible distance, as there was no distance. I pressed on hard like the futile running in a dream that is insistently in slow motion no matter how hard one may try to make headway. I then understood that I was only now embarking back toward the form of the non-physical; any distance to the physical was unthinkable.

In time I dimly saw the edge of the sea and a faint spec of light in the distance that I understood was Alpha Squared. I pressed on making slow progress and eventually came to the sea’s cliff-like edge; looking down I saw the crew. Then for a moment it was like I was both looking down at the crew, and also one of the crew’s circle looking back at the same instant (perhaps different points of view of the same thing). Suddenly I was back with them. The light was gone in our circle and in time I left them and returned to Tellaidian. I felt utterly blank; empty. There was no emotion, no feeling. There was no thought; other than getting back.

When I approached Tellaidian we looked at each other silently. I had no idea what to say or think. Then he and I turned and as we approached Alpha Squared I understood; we were returning to greater forms of the non-physical. This too was painfully slow. As we were just about to enter the station I suddenly found we were standing together in his conference room among his other guests as if we have never left. After recovering some of my whits, still feeling blank, I thanked Tellaidian and turned to leave his conference room. I headed up the steps to the hall and walked to the elevator. In some ways I felt I needed the structure of this place to help me reconsolidate. Eventually I walked across the main hall and exited to stop and view the stars and space. I stayed there for awhile wondering what does it all mean. What are these constructs?

When I got to V8 I withdrew my energy from the crystal and felt like I was beginning to recover; such a relief. I actually wasn’t sure how to return, feeling so abstracted. When I did returned to my SP in focus 27 I gripped the stone sill of my open air window trying to feel real, trying to pull myself back together again. I then forced myself thru the return mnemonics to get to 23 where I finally felt like I was becoming me. I passed thru 21 feeling better yet, but even from F12 I counted down every level 5, 4, 3, 2…. C1 and just then felt the material form of my body; so very good to be back. What does this mean? Why show me these things?

{The reader should understand: this is not about humans}

{If the reader wonders about the woman encountered during Starlines 2, in a recent ‘travel’ that I have not written about I did detect a women vaguely at my SP27 and ignored her. I have not encountered her since. I did not write of that travel because it was a training effort and there was no content to speak of}

November 24th 2017: Thoughts

Last night I saw clearly that I am beginning to understand. There is a consistency in what has been said to me in my notes – that, is surprisingly clear at times. But I ask, where is the joy in this? Where is the peace that one may have in the mist of all the stresses of acquiring this new frame of mind? I have not seen how that is obtained. Leave my life behind and come be with them I am told. Well I have a physical life, whether I like it or not. So why say to me, leave your former life? Leave it for what?

The Root, that is what Tellaidian called it, and appropriately so. The Gatekeeper did plainly tell me of the Energy Domain. I must ask Tellaidian ‘what’ he studies.

The Tellaidian Discussion 11/29/17 (Three Rivers, NM)

I’ve been thinking recently that Tellaidian must have learned a lot from his studies into what he calls ‘The Root…access to the ancient’, as he calls it. I wondered if I could get to him could I ask him this, so I thought I’d use the hemi-sync as a boost.

When I arrive in focus 21 I placed my mnemonic in the ground as is my habit and a large strong hand took hold of my wrist. Looking at the powerful hand that had a grip on me I noticed a white leather wristband with fine embroidered beads and I understood this was the sachem ancestor spirit. When I looked up at him he gave me a strong hug, clutching me tightly. I did not understand his emotion in this; why is he this way? Then he stepped back and looking at me squarely he slapped my on the side of my shoulder and then patted my on my upper chest as he seemed to be holding back some emotion. He appeared very glad I was there, but what does this mean? Then after we were together for some moments, I turned and left.

At my SP27 I spent considerable time charging with the creative force conduit and a second conduit that I rarely use (I primarily use the one conduit as it is harder to concentrate on the two and the creative force conduit works well on its own). In time I left. When I consolidated in F34/35 there was no awareness at all. It was all black. The narration directed me to charge V8 and so I simply pointed into the distance at V8 and charged it for others without going there. Then I proceeded to F42.

At Alpha Squared, entering the lobby area of the station I greeted the receptionist. The hall seemed bigger or I guess I just don’t look up much when I’m there, but now I saw the many floors rising upward that encircle the main hall; again recognizing its size. Then I went to the elevator.

When I got to my floor exiting the lift I looked toward Tellaidian’s conference room/lounge and saw it was empty. Walking over to it I saw Tellaidian alone and so I entered and greeted him. “Master Tellaidian…….. May I ask you questions about your experience with The Root”, I inquired? He answered brightly, “Come. Sit. Yes, I will tell you”, so I sat down on the long cushioned bench that outlines the inner wall of the lounge and then I was surprise to see Tellaidian lie down on the floor like a dog! I was astonished. He is short, perhaps shoulder height on me, but I’ve forgotten he is also long. I never thought about it; does he have 4 legs in addition to the two arms, or what?IMG_0477 But there he was, lying on the floor as a dog would with his robe draped over himself; his arms folded comfortably in front of him as he looked at me with his long face.

Briefly I took a closer look at the empty conference/lounge area and commented to him, “Master, you have a wonderful room”. “It is not mine”, he replied. “They let me use it”, he added with some sense of humor implied. As we sat there, it was just so good to be there sitting with him. We didn’t have to go anywhere. We could just sit there undisturbed, and so I ask, “Telladian, what have you learned from your studies here”? “I’ve come to know my essence”, he promptly answered. “How long have you been studying this?” I asked, and he explained, “I started very young. I knew something called me. It is unusual for my position (perhaps he was not of the right class), but when I had opportunity to study this I choose this path with greatly excited (and at some personal cost it seemed)”.

Then I thought to clarify, “Those that come here (to this conference area), they come here to work with you? Is that correct?” “They come with the hope of perhaps just beginning to feel it”, he answered. “What is this place we use (for the joined ring)? How does it work?”, I thought to ask. “It is a ‘place’ and it is in this galaxy. It is a space with unique properties”, he explained. Then I thought out-loud, “The Fountain”? To which he replied, “Yes. You know it”. Then recalling it I began to explain, “I remember I have seen it. The one who says she is my Elohim mother took me to see it once. There were many of us walking together, as if arriving from various places, coming together to converge on the sight. They were going to witness it, as if a sort of gathering of great importance (6/19/2015). All I understood at the time was that it was as a fountain from the Source – a fire; a fountain of energy as a natural occurrence. You use this energy for the joined ring?” To which Tellaidian simply replied, “That place is powerful”. I continued, “If that place ‘is’ in the galaxy, then where is it we go when we use it?”, as he softly replied, “We both know it is not a ‘where’”. “Yes”, I conceded.

Curious about what he teaches I asked, “How are your students doing with this? It is a great thing to know”. Then as if assessing he said, “They all are nearly beginners, but you are my best student”. I was taken off-guard, “I am? How can that possibly be?” He then appeared to factually answer, “It is your capabilities”, but I retorted, “What capabilities? I can hardly be here. What capability do I have?” He directly replied, “You – can see”. Incredulously I countered, “Well I don’t seem to see too much as far as I can tell”, but Tellaidian rejected my statements, “No. You exceed even me”. I continued, “Tellaidian, how can that possibly be? I’ve hardly been here”. Then Tellaidian explained, “I have spent my lifetime studying the Root, seeking to be there – to understand mysteries,…but that is your birthplace! ‘They’ talk to you!” Puzzled I ask, “Don’t they talk to you when you are there?” “No!”, he replied and added, “It is profound, yes but they do not speak to me, as they speak to you. “The Wise One [you call it] – that one also speaks to you!”

“I just can’t. I can’t see this as possible”, I complained. “I don’t understand; I really do not do these things myself. Me? I have no profound capability. I cannot believe this is true.” “You should not judge [assess] yourself that way”, Tellaidian injected, “They” clearly do not judge you. ‘They’ welcome YOU!” ” It is too hard to accept. I just cannot believe this”, I concluded but then Tellaidian added, “That is also not a flaw [as you think]. That is your strength!”, and I wondered at what he meant.

Seeking to change the subject I asked, “Do you join the circle?” “No longer”, he answered, “That is now always in me. I am always part of the circle – without joining”. Then I thought to ask, “Why do I see [ocean-like] waves, or water when I’m joined in the circle?” Tellaidian explained, “What expresses wonder to you (your world), that expanse, the depths, its’ mystery, to be in awe of it; that is the presented form – how you apprehend those characteristics… It is a form you can recognize. That [thought-]object is the presentation of the nature of it that is most comprehensible to you”. “So I see it as the ocean”, I asked? “Yes, but then you are able to go beyond that!”

“Come walk”, he said and getting up we walked out to the balcony overlooking the main hall below. Then pausing he said, “You see all those (those in the main hall below us). They came here for a reason, perhaps to meet others who may also have come here for their own reasons. Each comes from a place that has reasons of its own. Many reasons are represented there among just these. But all this is here as a result of something else; a purpose that brought all this into being – here. ‘Their’ purpose…. When you are with ‘them’, ask; [and tell me] I would like to know.

From there we walked down the balcony hallway to the observation room above the reception area. I stood there wondering what this was all about, and when I turned to look at Tellaidian, was gone.

The Next Phase

12/3/17.

I am adrift – lost. What reality am I living in?

The Wise One’s Directions (12/13/17)

I have been letting my skills fade, although in recent days I have been doing basic QiGong circulations for my own well being. The thought had crossed my mind to see if I could get back, but I put that thought out of my mind.

Today I realized I forgot to do my QiGong routine as the day was busy with various tasks and this evening I thought to go lie down and just breath; to not even do a meditation; no circulations – to just breath and relax. I need a break.

When I laid down I found energy clearly all around me as I have known it in the past. After just a few breaths, and given how strong the energy was, I decided to announced, “I am here. I am willing to listen to any that speak in truth free of deceit and guile.” Then taking me by surprise I immediately heard, “We are here. Come”. I wondered to myself in this natural state how I should go and instantly they replied, “In any manner you choose.”

Feeling stuffy I got up and went to clear my sinuses; then getting some ear plugs and a blanket for my feet I went back to mediation without hemi-sync. I quickly recognized how rusty I was at my practice. I couldn’t decide where I should go so I eased out to F12. There I realized, or it felt like, I was in F12 this whole time – when I was first doing my breathing I was already connected to this state, so I decided to go on to F21. When I place my mnemonic, I turned and saw the sachem spirit standing a short distance away. I saw his age, his very long gray hair, simple worn clothing – an old native man of the Earth. We said nothing and I wondered about this sight. There I decided to go to my SP in 27 as it is home to me, so I continued on.

Arriving in 27 I found myself at my old Lifeline (course) soul-retrieval landing area and wondered why I was there. I could not decide if I believed the large angel was there or not, so I flew on strong breezes to my SP. At my SP I stood on the large ledge portico for awhile and then I went into my SP. The SP was dark, cold, seeming dusty as an old abandoned house. As I walked past the crystal inclusion in the wall I considered it for a moment as I proceeded to my favorite spot at my window.

I announced again, “I am here. I am willing to listen to those that speak truth with authority”. Then I began to access the creative force conduit and felt its connection. I was rusty at drawing its energy as I do that by lifting my extended palm to it drawing in its power, but immediately the conduit’s light enveloped my hand as if swallowing it. I thought that’s different as the sensation grew and the conduit’s light enveloped my arm even more. Then I found myself being drawing into the light. As I looked into this light I wondered if it was now acting as a portal, so letting go I allowed it to draw me in as I stepped full body into this bright light wondering where it would take me and instantly I found myself on the main entrance level of the Great Hall 2 finding two attendants looking at me. I greeted them and then one directed me to enter, so I walked into the dark hall.

Once in the Hall I was aware that the Wise One was present and so I bowed and greeted it. Then booming from the Hall’s depths I heard, “You must turn away from this argument [you have with us]”. “I would gladly do so if I could, but how can I know this is true? Why has that been too much to ask, to provide some signature that allows me to know that all this ‘is’ the same root as the One that first called me? That One proved himself. Why is this too much to ask?” I challwnged. “That will come in its time, but you must lay aside this argument”, the Wise One said as though talking to me personally.

I considered to myself that I do not know how to do this. What has really changed? Then the Wise One said to me, “I will give you clarity. Come and be with me here”. I considered this wasn’t too much to ask; all I have to do is show up ‘if’ I can, but others have also said this before. Some Elohim once said I may come and be with them, but I found I could not do it and I did not detect any help from them in the matter. Then after a pause while I thought about this the Wise One reiterated, “Come. Come here to be with me”. There was more to this discussion as I bantered around these points; I can’t quite remember the exact phrasing of the elements, but I did decide that I would at least try.

I was gone a long time, and then felt it was time to leave. I remember turning around to leave the Hall. As I stepped out of the Hall’s dark interior shadows approaching the entrance platform I was aware briefly of a brilliant image of the city as I recognized the bright light illuminating the Hall’s portico area. I understood that was the portal back. The attendant directly me to return that way. I entered the light and immediately I was back in my body at C1 as if nothing had happene

Would Challenge an Attendant (12/14/17)

This day I went back as I was told. I will see what comes of this I had decided. Still feeling rusting I decided to use hemi-sync as a boost. I moved through my mnemonics as usual, but when I got to focus 34/35 I realized I took the wrong path to get to The City. For some moments I didn’t know how to get there from where I was and after some conflicted thoughts I decided to try and access my F42 mnemonic on the Green Wall and use that to get to the City of Light, I hoped.

However, when I tried to access that mnemonic I was not able to consolidate there. I focused on this for sometime but never could get into a settled state. Then suddenly I passed into and through the Wall, but it was unclear as to what state I was in. This was all different to me. It felt like I was in the City but it wasn’t as I’ve known it in the past; things were more ghost like.

Then someone, seeming as an apparition, appeared hovering over me on my left and then took my hand. The phantom seemed feminine and then pulled me by the hand dragging me through the air just above the ground. I wasn’t able to recognized the City as I have in the past, but as I looked up into the distance I saw looming over the City, as if seeing Mt Hood in the distance, the Great Hall appearing very high up over the City in the distance shrouded in clouds. I looked at it and wondered that I was seeming this view for the first time.

The apparition brought me to the transport area but I could not discern who was there. Everything was vague and confused, but I was aware of something allowing me onto the transport. I felt it begin to move and as we traveled it was like passing through a cold fog. I could see nothing about me but mist. It was as if I was on the bow deck of a large wooden ship. Passing through the mists I began to pace the foredeck waiting to arrive. After a time I felt a bump as if the ship, or whatever it was, had lightly touched something solid. When I looked up I was aware of the landing area at the base of the great staircase that ascends to the Hall.

I began climbing the steps which seemed to take a long time. When I finally got to the top level, stepping onto the entrance portico of the Great Hall, an attendant confronted me, “Have you cleansed yourself?”, he demanded to know. As I was in no mood for any banter with an attendant, I was about to challenge it asking what method he thought suitable when from within the dark depths of the Hall I head, “Let him pass”.

I enter the Hall which was more vague than before and as I was not yet willing to yield my argument I found the state to be confusing. Where was I? I was aware that something was trying to reason with me about patience.

The whole event became vague, confused, as I was impatient with the games I seem to encounter. I can’t remember anything after that and later found myself back in C1.

A new way… (12/21/17)

Yesterday (12/20/17) I went to see the Wise One as invited, in manual meditation. I remember getting there, and part of our meeting vaguely now. I was in the Great Hall a long time; I was gone over an hour.

Today, the ability to feel my stones (large crystals) is coming back to me. I’ve found how to be calm too. Today, I think I understand; things are clearer to me.

On Behalf of Tellaidian (12/23/17)

During my morning meditation outside after calling the Spirits as I sat I became aware of a called… from who? It seemed the Ancients, but I glimpsed Tellaidian. I disregarded it as I don’t pay attention to just any thought that pops into my mind. Who knows where all these thoughts come? After sometime I went back inside and felt this call again. I realized I haven’t been doing many ‘travels’ for awhile; there isn’t much to search out if my basic questions won’t be settled, but at this time I thought I’d be open to responding to this.

After awhile I went back into meditation w/o hemi-sync. I was rusty as usual now. I worked through my mnemonics and eventually came to F27; the details are incidental. In F27 I went to my SP27. Entering it, I found it was crowded, but by what. What was creating this crowded sense? I thought I detected Raphael, but what was all the rest? Whatever it was was beyond my perception, and I actually doubted Raphael was there; so easy to memory load.

I went to the window to begin my sling-shot maneuver and then Raphael came to stand next to me. This was vague, and as I only sensed Raphael somewhat I decided to stay focused on moving on as I was not sure he was actually there. As I was getting ready to leave he said to me, “Don’t you want to know what I have to say”? Startled since I doubted his presence I replied, “Yes, of course”, and he continued, “Things are going well. Everything is on schedule”, as I had some awareness as to what he was referring. Given that was all he offered after a moment I commenced my maneuver. I reached out to the energy conduit which seemed quite accessible and charged. I did more bounces than usual; to really have a grip on the energy, and sprung into F34/35.

I eventually went to F42 and arrived at my mnemonic on Alpha Squared. There I found Tellaidian waiting for me. Together we began to walk to his conference area. As we walked I focused on observing how he was walking. How many legs are under that long robe I wondered. When we came to his conference area I found one of his ring associates waiting there for us as he was looking right at me. Without direction from Tellaidian, this individual turn as if to lead me away and together we left Tellaidian’s room suddenly appearing with the other two ring members.

After greeting them all, we joined and I was about to added energy to the circulation amongst us but that was snuffed out. Now rather than seeing the ring of light passing through us I saw each of us beginning to glow and then I saw a bright white light appearing in each of us; becoming ever brighter.

I wondered why the ring was working this way, but then I saw an enormous wave like a tsunami. I saw it approaching and then breaking, seeing it stretching far along a coastline into the distance; this enormous wave approaching and cresting, watching it as one great wave extending far into the distance. As it approached us I found I was suddenly, gone.

Where was I? I don’t know. I wondered who might be there unsure about how everything felt. Where am I? “[…Ancients…]”, was clearly enunciated but there was no conversation between us. I wondered why I was there but received no answer. I then thought to just settle down and extend my awareness to them should they wish to speak. I stayed a long time somewhat struggling with why I was there as there was no discussion. After awhile I thought I must be wrong about all this. It didn’t make sense and as I was about to leave they said, “STAY”, and so I continued to wait.

Again I found I was waiting for a long time it seemed. I didn’t understand why I would be called here to this, and then I saw an image of Tellaidian appear which has never happened before here. In whatever place, state, or unformed energy this is, I perceived him as if he was wandering – in search of something, but he seemed to be unaware of us.

As I observed him I said to the Ancients, “Tellaidian desires to know your purpose. I understand he has not heard from you. He has spent most of his life coming here searching. Would you not speak to him”? “Yes. We will…”, was replied and then they continued, “We will tell him of futures”. “And what of your purpose? He wishes to know that”, I added. “[Expressed] creativity; but as to the purpose of the region you think (Alpha Squared) our purpose is greater integration; to bring more…into greater integration. This results in greater creativity; purpose and reasons [integrate[weave]] into greater creativity”, they explained.

As I contemplated what they said, happy that Tellaidian would hear from them I turned my attention back to them saying, “Thank you”, but they responded, “This is not needed. It was our intention to do this, but you implemented the moment 3 We thank you”.

Seeming both clear and unclear as to what the answers to all the possible questions may now naturally proceed I waited to see what else they might say. Then they said, “You may leave now”. Accepting what I was told, I turned and again saw the great black sea with white light reflected off the wave crests, but now I was not concerned with distance or form. It seemed natural to me; familiar, and moments later I was back with the ring.

I saw the glow of light fading from all of our torsos and soon returned to the blackness of F34/35 without reentering the station. For awhile I was adrift and fussed with getting back to my SP27. After a few short moments I found myself back in my SP with my hands resting on the stone sill of my window. Raphael was still present. I stood there wondering what this was all about, but I did not want to argue so I turned to leave rather than raise any of my questions with Raphael.

As I approached my door about to leave Raphael stopped me, saying, “The time is coming”, as if to reassure me but what does that mean to me anymore I considered – I’m tired. I then walked out through my SP door and as I stepped out onto my portico a bright light appear before me. I was immersed in a peaceful rest. I stood there as the light enveloped me. Peace. Rest. Finally – here is a moment of it, and I stayed there just feeling the rest for a long time. Then the light appear to move on and the sensation of it faded. I then returned.

What is it one must do? (Dec 30th, 2017)

In recent days I’ve conducted occasional meditations to test my charging. All those meditations were complete duds – absolutely nothing. That’s ok. Better to know when something actually does happen and then that changed yesterday morning which led to a long clear contact.

I didn’t write anything about that connection because there just seems no point at times to this. Its just more crazy. But later today I thought I should write myself some notes in case some of this is found to be pertinent at a later time. This meditation was just over an hour.

What happened was I laid down to just relax since recent meditations were zeros. Again it appeared I had considerable energy. At the time I could feel my energy had considerable expansion. When I sense this I thought I’d go to focus 12 as I didn’t have any particular intention in mind.

As I turned my awareness outward in F12 I relaxed into my usual passive state to observing, wait and see. Then there was a surprising moment. I was aware of Tellaidian – he was quite clear. As an aside, at times during the day I struggle wondering if I was having moments of lucid clarity of such things reaching through to me. Is that what’s actually happening?

Now it was as if Tellaidian was calling me. He seemed quite jovial or something like that. “No. You must assert yourself!”, he injected as if he was critiquing my use of passive observation in F12. Then he jovially added, “Come visit. You should come visit”. This was clearly telegraphed; his upbeat sense. Is this true? Yet, I thought I should go over and visit with Tellaidian. I recognized what he meant though. I should implement my communications by exerting more will; hard to do when one doesn’t know.

When I entered my SP27 Raphael was quite clear standing in the corner as has been his custom. Is this real? He’s definitely clearer. Then he again said something like its coming very soon. Given that I then proceeded with the bounce drawing energy from the conduit. I felt quite charged. On the way, I decided to spend sometime at Voyager 8. I generally don’t have much interest in being there, but for some unknown reason I thought I’d go.

I was surprised to see that both Instructor ‘F’ and Instructor ‘A’ were at V8. It was fairly clear and I would have liked to have email them and ask if they were really there. Did they see me? They appeared to be quite aware of me. I went on to charge the crystal to a large brilliant point of starlight. After some moments I began to phase to F42 and the transition was quite clear. Interesting; very much like materializing somewhere else this time.

When I consolidated in F42 at AS I immediately went to Tellaidian’s conference room. As I enter I noted there were no other guests. I went and joined Tellaidian as he stood along side the large windows that trace the exterior wall of the large and long lounge area. I greeted him, “Master Tellaidian” and he retorted, “Always so formal you are”. Then together we slowly strolled along the long window as we looked out into the stars.

I don’t really remember the sequence of our conversation and I don’t know how we got on the subject but I said to Tellaidian, “I don’t think I am interested in going back to the Ancients”. Tellaidian looked at me, maybe looking surprised as he objected, “You MUST go back”. I continued, “I think I would still be interested in being with the Wise One. That One is more…. more specific I think”. Tellaidian appeared to [consider as if] understand[ing] me, but then insisted again. “You MUST go back, and be with your own”. “They are my own?”, I questioned and then muttered, “I don’t know what all this is about”.

Then somehow we got on another subject: the idea that we were working in a thought-construct as Tellaidian explained it. As if clarifying for me he said, “We are not here as you know. In the world of our thoughts we are meeting in a common place of mind. This is what all that come here do”. As he was clarifying the notion, that we are each at home in our physical places I asked him whether he could show me where he is now – telepathically.

Then I saw as though looking deep in his planet a dark place. It was like immense catacombs. I was seeing a small part of it and this was more like seeing an enormous volcanic cavity, the walls made of very large bubble-like voids as those seen in scoria; but very large. I looked across the catacomb and noted numerous voids in the rock on the far side of this chasm, as if each one was a small alcove and seated in many of them was a creature that looked similar to Tellaidian in appearance. Each figure appeared to be in meditation. Then I looked far below perhaps 100 foot down and saw something like a pedestrian area or road on which others appeared to be going about some activities. Suddenly it was as if I was looking over Tellaidian’s shoulder and I was aware of his own personal sitting area. Then I was back.

We somehow got on the topic of the ring as Tellaidian was explaining that what is basically happening is they are able to acquire and add energy to thoughts to strengthen them. Then we wandered out to be with his associates as if we were going to joined the ring, but now I saw something different. His associates were no longer less significant figures compared to Tellaidian, as if mere associates. Now I saw each one was more personified, clearer to me (alien) and I understood that each of these three figures was an accomplished master; each one having studied and devoted himself to this energy/translation phenomena or whatever it is. I apprehended the stature of these individuals.

As we joined I began to raise energy with them, but then they directed me to stop and first observe them, and so I watch seeing how they were ramping up their own energy almost in hue, and I tried to mimic them. Then our energy really rocketed. I saw the ring amongst us blazed in brilliance. For some reason I looked into the center of the ring amongst us and saw a powerful rush of light burst up through the center, It flowed upward before us and first my body tingled but then it rang with energy – power. They called out to me, “Put your thought into the stream”, and I called out to the emergence, “I need to know this is true. What is delusion? Is this true?”

After sometime we shutdown the ring. I turned to Tellaidian as if inquiring what was the point of giving more energy to this thought as he replied, “Now the whole Universe knows you are asking”. In response I said, “I aways felt that my question was recognize at least locally. Then Tellaidian looking at me with his long face said, “Now the question has gone beyond the local”, he replied.

I think that’s all I care to try to recall. That was mostly it although there was more detail to the conversations and events.

What is the key to obtaining the conviction this is actually true? It is beyond belief. It is too incredible a thing – that which is beyond mortals, worlds, beyond galaxies, beyond creation itself. How could I possibly be apprehending something like this?


  1. See collected notes: Tales of Master Tellaidian 
  2. See collection notes The Wise One and the Ancients 
  3. The water in air can have a humidity of 800% with forming clouds. The moisture in the air needs some particle of dust or salt or pollen to provide a nucleation point allowing a drop of rain to precipitate from that point. Water also needs some impurity to nucleate the commencement of the formation of an ice crystal.