My notes: from the Monroe Institute Lifelines Course. This course explores the Afterlife; attention given to the skill of – the soul-retrieval, as some call it.
The conscious-aware regions, or spectrums of levels called focus levels 22 – 27, are in this training course. For a review of the focus levels see: The MtnGoat’s Discussion on the Focus Levels
These notes begin just before I flew out to TMI. I include these to illustrate some of the internal struggles one may go through while trying to adapt to these weird experiences.
The Thursday Before Leaving for Lifeline:
I went to focus 12 hoping to find some explanation. I thought Raphael would be there; he’s around so much I just expected he would show up as usual, but he was not there.
Looking to something Greater, thinking out-loud, I wondered whether there was someplace or something I could turn to to find true and complete answers. Again, I found nothing. Then for an, instant I wondered if I sensed something there – beyond me. But then I also wondered whether I was just talking to myself.
Is it too much to ask; to simply be told plainly the truth of these matters? Is that really – too much to ask?
Now, all this seems unreal to me. It is absolutely crazy. Why did I ever sign-up to go to TMI next week? (151 hrs of Hemi-Sync to date).
Saturday 3/28/15
During my flight to TMI, and certainly when I arrived there, I had the distinct concern that nothing would happen at all during this course; that my own doubts would dis-create everything. Along with that I had a disconcerting feeling; I was in the wrong place. This is a mistake.
The Monroe Institute: Lifelines Course
Sunday Morning 3/29/15 1st session: Focus 12 Reset
~ 9:00AM (20:37 LST) No EC Shielding. 14.3 protons/cm3. Flares: C3
I had a bad night’s sleep; guess that was natural as I was tired and worried I lost my connections.
I couldn’t shake the feeling that nothing would happen; that the trip would prove to be a complete waste – and I would know that.
The first lesson of the day was a re-visit, or reset, as they call it in TMI speak. This re-visit session was a free flow2 in focus 12. At the resonant tuning portion of the session I tried to draw energy from the two energy conduits I’ve been given access to; each a distinctive force.
At the affirmation statement of the preparatory process I requested an understanding of my purpose at Lifeline and then I felt Drago; as a un-tame power(force) moving thru and coursing around the valley. The awareness of this great and familiar being encouraged me. I smiled, so to speak.
When I got settled in focus 12 I made a plea to – who? To the Source of all things? What can one appeal to I considered?
Immediately, in complete and utter clarity, I heard, “We are with you as before! We will always be with you. You are not separated from Us. You are not separated!”
Such a relief, to be back with these familiar contacts; to find the transcendent powerful and clarity of Their voice. I felt deep relief, and the release of all my worries; to not be alone in this struggle.
I called out to Them saying, “What is my purpose here – at Lifeline”?
‘”Service… as you know”, was softly replied. Then, since I had no other questions for Them, I turned my thoughts and all my energy out to the whole campus, to all the people in their CHEK units.
I extended myself, my field, out to around and beyond the whole facility. I gathered it so that everyone was encompassed in my intention and I invoked support for all the other students. Illumination. Understandings, and personal answers to all that sought it.
Immediately I felt a tremendous power, radiant thru me. And I maintained this one intention for the whole session with absolutely confidence and uninterrupted singular focus.
Sunday Morning 2nd Session – Focus 15 Reset
In this session we were directed to reset in focus 15. I decided to work on dis-creating my negativity and doubts.
At the affirmation I stated my intention but added I would respond to more important tasks that may be requested of me at this time.
Once I was in F15 I looked for assistance, not knowing what direction was deemed best for this time or what to expect.
Then someone, as if standing next to me said, “Do you wish to first take care of your concerns”? And so I did, spending some moments dis-creating things I was aware of. After that I waited, wondering whether whoever just spoke to me would direct me further.
But then I saw a dark mountain ridge in the distance, as if lit in the background from what I presumed to be sunrise or a sunset light.
As I studied the image I didn’t know what to make of it but since the image was clear, I accepted that I should go with it. Next I found myself seeing a few more peaks beyond; defining further the ridge, as if seeing it from a higher vantage point.
I looked and saw a large bird soaring above the peaks. I wondered whether it was an eagle, or a hawk.
I said to myself, you bonehead you don’t know what kind of bird that is, just go with a big bird, as I watched this bird circling in that distance.
Then the voice that spoke to me earlier said to me, “Mount up with wings as an eagle! It is our intention to enable you”.
I wondered: What have I learned about patience, with these things about to unfold?
The voiced added, “You will fulfill Our purpose. You will also, fulfill your purpose. We will gather our brethren. Current man will be removed and new man will be restored to this place”.
Then the session was interrupted by the narration directing the exit. Once back at C1 I wondered at how the morning completely change everything for me; from worry and doubt, to everything is ok. They are here. I am ok now.
Sunday Evening – Focus level 21 Reset
That evening we were introduce to the notion of the pick-code used to assist us with tagging session events for recall later and/or tagging images as they pass us so we may return to that memory or image at a later time and address whatever need may arise. We also discussed the use of what is called the LL-Remember. This lesson was mostly about placing those markers along the way while proceeding to F21.
Sunday Evening – Introduction to focus levels 22 & 23.
~ 7:30PM (6:44 LST) Excellent EC Shielding
This session was our first exposure to focus-levels beyond 21. For myself it was difficult to get much of an impression of focus 22. However, focus 23 was quite clear to me.
When I arrived in focus 23 I found myself hovering over what appeared to be a vast, tranquil, empty space…. or sea.
I clearly saw the state as a still calm ocean-like surface free of any swells, not even the tinniest ripple. This scene was draped in mists; its surroundings shrouded in a fog, extending out into the distance. My perspective what that of perhaps 15 feet or so above the water, levitating in the fog’s mists.
I waited, observing, and soon I saw a large old wooden ship that impressed me as some sort of merchant vessel of the late 19th or early 20th century. As I watched it pass-by I saw the hands on deck going about their activities. I continued watching the ship as it pass from sight.
Shortly after that, after a distance following that vessel, I saw a capsized lifeboat adrift and so I tagged it using the LL-Remember tag technique mentioned above. That image also passed away slowly.
Later I saw what appeared as an early 20th century ocean liner cruising very slowly in a tangential approach to me. It too passed out of sight.
Lastly I saw a relatively modern cargo vessel, like an oil freighter; clearly seeing its bridge as it passed by. Following these images it was time to exit the sesson.
Monday 3/30/15 Morning – 1st Rescue Session to Focus 23
In this lesson we were directed to reacquire one of our LL-Remember tags from the previous session and be open to a rescue operation offer. At my affirmation I requested I’d be shown how I may be of service, to give me the insight, the understanding, concerning how I should engage whatever I may find.
Once in focus 23 I again found myself in a vast quiet space; a seeming calm ocean, no trace of even a ripple in the still water. I used my LL-Remember tag to recall the capsized lifeboat I saw in the previous session. When I found it I took position hovering over it. I thought to first right the capsized boat.
Once I did that I had to focus hard to make out the details of the image; to understand what I was looking at. As I did I saw a man climbing into the aft section of the boat. I observed him and then saw a second man climbing into the mid-section. Then I saw two men at the stern who appeared to be keeping the boat steady as the first two climbed in. Finally those two men scrambled into the stern of the craft.
The men were very young, dressed in the same clothing which impressed me as some sort of uniform; perhaps late 19th or early 20th century? I had no idea what country they represented. None seemed to be officers I thought. They appeared gravely; deadly cold. I saw they were greatly relieved to be back in the boat.
As I came to understand the situation my first thought was to create a warm sunny day with a heavenly light. Once that appeared I saw all the men immediately take heart, seeing their spirits encouraged and lifted. Next I created a beam of light draped in clouds shining down from a much great light in the sky. Then I realized I was visible over them. Looking at myself I was surprise to see I had on my old jeans and old track shoes.
I pointed to the light and called to them, telling them they may return home to their love ones. The men appeared happy, and then joyful, as they immediately floated up into the light. I saw them quite naturally follow along the beam of light I created; each in utter joy.
I was about to leave but then felt I should examine the lifeboat further. I looked at the boat studying it. It was hard to discern but there was something dark along the side of the boat; something floating, and I realized it was the dead body of one sailor face-down in the water.
Descending I reached down and in an instant I lifted the apparition out the water placing it in the center of the boat. I looked at the figure; seeing a very young man looking frigid cold, depressed, as if utterly lost.
I called to him saying there are love ones waiting for him. With a worn look he said to me, “There is no one that loves me”.
I was gripped – torn by what he said as I knew what he felt. My chest ached but I countered telling him, there are those that love him, waiting for him.
I went down to him and taking his hand, I led him up out of the boat. We drifted together slowly upward into the sky. Soon, he was able to travel up on his own. Then he appeared to be well, and he disappeared from my vision.
Then a thought occurred to me. I thought to take the sunbeam and enlarge it that it might serve as a beacon for others possibly.
Immediately I saw a myriad of individuals drifting upward in the sky; this scene extending out to the distant horizon; a stream of spirits or souls. These did not result from rescues . I was seeing the current of souls naturally departing.
As I gazed at the vision I also saw numerous creatures. These appeared as angels receiving the souls, guiding them… I found I became emotionally overwhelmed by the site.
It was too much to see. I was completely overwhelmed by the emotion of seeing such a place. It was… far more emotion than I could bare, and as my chest ached terribly I felt I must leave.
When I exited back to C1 I found myself in my CHCK unit completely drained both emotionally and physically. Meeting the young man in the lifeboat, though I knew he moved on, I still felt his dying thoughts – that no one loved him.
This left me in a deep pained sadness.
Monday Late Morning Session: Focus 23-26 Lesson.
The objective of this session was to introduce the students to a few levels beyond focus 23.
At the affirmation I requested understanding of whatever I may find, but then I heard a commanding voice say, “We send you God’s strength”.
I turned to look and found I was facing Gabriel. He stood squarely before me and placing both his hands on my shoulders, he faced me directly.
Then with his right hand he slapped me on my left shoulder as he bid me farewell. I was surprised by this but continued on to the levels, peering at the darkness. The session’s narration guided us thru and out of F23. I found myself back in the light I made for the sailors earlier, when directing them beyond F23.
The light shone as a path and I followed it I beyond F23. Now however, rather than finding myself in the black ramblings of some focus-level I found myself in space above the Earth.
I was high up, higher than low Earth orbit. I looked out at the deep black of clear space, its stars and below me I saw the Earth cloaked in its atmosphere, as if that was thin shell about the Earth. I turned and saw the moon in crisp detail. Then I looked back at the Sun, which now I more correctly recognized it as our star. It wasn’t the yellow ball I was use to seeing throughout my life3. It had a more pure color quality to it, more white.
As I gazed at this vision I wondered to myself, why are I here… seeing this? This isn’t the lesson. Promptly and quite clearly someone said to me, “We had something else planned for you”. The vision was completely clear. The statement also was clear.
I looked down and saw infinity below my feet. I found I could travel at incredible speed, and before I knew how, I did.
In an instant I was up and out looking down at an outer arm of the our galaxy; seeing the wonderful light it emitted. As time began to lapse I gave thought to getting back to Earth and in an instant I was back roaming over parts of the Earth looking down at it. I intended well being and healing for the ocean, its sea life, all the animals, the weather systems, but then there was space junk everywhere. So much junk. It completely disgusted me. I thought to impress it to reenter the atmosphere and burn up.
Then I remembered something: once hiking on a nearby trail, as I hiked I ask the Gatekeeper the meaning of these experience.
He showed me the Earth hanging in space as he extended his arm pointing to it, but again… what does all this mean?
I wondered to myself, why am I here? Then someone clearly said to me, “We thought this would be more fulfilling for you”, so I stayed there enjoying the wonder of the vision.
So much wonder – I had completely forgotten that wonder even exists.
Monday Late Afternoon – Free Flow Focus 25
3/30/15 4:00PM Excellent EC Shielding
At my affirmation I stated I was interested in seeing the Belief Territories but I added I was willing to go wherever I was needed. If They want me to work on my own beliefs that was fine too.
Heading out to focus levels 24-26 I disregarded the track guidance. Again I found myself very high above what appeared like an ocean. Was this the same area where the lifeboat was I wondered. Looking about I recognized I could see a shoreline stretching into the distance.
I continued to follow my light-path as before over the ocean, heading into the sky. This was as following a sunbeam, or ray of light, as a pathway; where I saw the lifeboat souls ascend earlier.
Soon I emerged from bright white illuminated clouds. I had no idea where I was. I looked around trying to understand where I was and I began to see the balcony of a beautify villa.
It struck me as one of those beautiful postcard-like places in the Mediterranean; absolute perfection in the craftsmanship of white plaster and stonework. There were beautiful lush green plants tracing the railings of the multilevel balconies that outlined the buildings’ fronts. There was a narrow roadway below; across that was also a multilevel structure with balconies.
With the perfect sky of a wonderful sunny day I began to walk along one balcony of an upper level looking down at the cobblestone street to my right. I marveled at the absolute perfection of the street’s structures; beautifully handcrafted cobbles. The scene was absolute perfection. However, in the mist of this scene I recognized this beautiful town-scape was completely deserted. There was no one.
Puzzled, I continued walking along the balcony. Where is everyone? As I wandered along the balcony I noticed a handsome white horse saddled and hitched in the street below, yet again no one was there to be seen.
There were doors along the balcony’s walk on my left as if passing a row of apartments; a sculptured railing along my right with the small roadway below. I came to a door on my left that commanded my attention. I was about to pass-by but there was something about that door that held my attention, so I went in.
Inside I found a wonderful apartment with rich looking dark woods; beautiful white plaster and stonework. There was a large bright red area rug. I walked across this and through the main room to a large open-air stone framed window that had a view of the city.
I looked out and saw many villas and homes nestled into the green hillsides. This view was also beautiful and amazing, yet again, there was no one.
I decided to leave and turned around. As I walked across the main room toward the door I noticed a room on my left. It was a bedroom and as I looked inside I saw a large lavish bed with an old man laying comfortably on it.
I asked the old man resting there where everyone had gone. He told me, “Everyone would say, that if you stayed here you would die, so everyone has left”. I asked him why he stayed. He said, “I like it here. I’ve been here a long time. I don’t want to leave”. Then he looked at me and asked, “Are you an angel”.
I explained I am another messenger and that he may move on from here if he wishes. I told him that there are other beautiful places that are not abandoned and that he may leave anytime he desires. He seemed to think about that and said nothing more, so I turned to leave but pausing again I remind him, “You may leave anytime you wish”.
I left and as I exited the apartment I immediately found myself in darkness and wondered what this was about. Suddenly I remembered from a previous trip that I observed a man in the Believe Territories that I had memory-tagged. Referencing him via the tag I found the man as I had seen him earlier.
He was sitting in a simple old wooden chair wearing dusty, drab, gray, and worn shabby garb. He was hunched forward in the chair with his face in his hands staring at the floor in darkness. It was totally black around him. There was nothing else.
He seemed unaware of me so I created a bright light shining down on him, but he appeared to notice nothing. Given the lack of response I turned the illumination into a blinding bright white light and directed it on him. Slowly he turned his head looking up at me, peering through his fingers, covering his eyes as if unaccustomed to any light.
I said to him, “You don’t have to stay here. There is another place where you are not in the dark and you won’t be alone”, but he answered, “No. There is no light. There is only darkness”.
I quickly retorted, “Yet – you are shading your eyes from this light.” The next moment I saw he recognized he could not dispute this, and then he looked at me as if uncertain.
Immediately two individuals that I cannot describe arrived. They waited on the periphery just beyond his awareness. The man slowly stood up, stiff and frail as the two entities drew closer.
The attendants each took him by an arm and the man slowly turned away from his chair as his steps were carefully guided away. As they walked, about to disappear, the man slowed to a pause and looked back at me over his shoulder, as if still unclear as to what had happened. Then they walked away quietly and disappeared.
When they were gone I again found myself in darkness but then a dim twilight emerged. I found myself walking through a dirty burnt-out war zone, or perhaps a city that was burned to the ground; some dark disaster. I found I was standing in the ruin and rubble of a building; all was black charred.
There was no one and nothing wholesome about the place so I created a ray of light over myself that extended up into the sky and I followed the light beam out of that place. I found myself in a black void and called out, “Well – is there anything good to see here?!”
Instantly I found myself walking on a country rural road lined by thick green tall grasses growing on either side of the roadway and ahead I saw a wonderful cottage just off to the right. It was nestled by lovely trees and other long green grasses; green pasture lands all around it. It was a picture perfect country scene.
I walked up to the front door of the cottage and knocked. A man and a woman answered. They were young. Standing in the doorway the man had his arm around the women’s shoulder and she had her arm around his waist. Seeing them standing together it was clear the two were completely in love.
I commented I was passing by and saw their beautiful cottage. The women replied, “Yes. We built it ourselves and we love this place”. I apprehended perfect joy. There was nothing they were in need of and so I said goodbye, turned and left. The narration began to commenced the exit. With a sense of descending I let myself go, drifting through the levels until I got to F21.
I came to rest there for a moment and looking around I saw a small domed shaped stone block house. I recognized a feeling about this place. It seemed to naturally appeal to me, as if a place of sanctuary, a place to recuperate, so I stayed a few moments enjoying its appearance trying to absorb needed rest. Then I returned.
Monday Night: First Trip to Focus 27
In this session I staged to leave focus 12 from my old landing area there; one I used when going to the Lamppost (in F21) in recent months. That spot is just a ledge abutting darkness. Now however, to my surprise I found a small Earth dragon4 standing on the ledge next to me. It seemed so excited.
I proceeded to focus 15. The narration lets us pause there for a bit before heading to F21. I noticed the dragon begin to follow me into focus 15 but did not continue. I considered that for a moment and left F15 as the narration lead me out to focus 21.
When I arrived in F27 I found myself near a shoreline of a beautiful cove, absolutely beautiful. In the near distance I saw two large and elegant sailboats. They were tall and sleek with simple but enormous pure white sails. The craft’s build resembled nothing on Earth that I could imagine. The cove was strongly sheltered, encircle by rocky high bluffs that extended down to the waterline. The scene was absolute tranquility, completely restful; a place where time is of no concern and has no weight.
Then I realized someone was standing next to me. I turned to see who it was and found I was with my old roommate B who just passed away in recent weeks. We were standing together looking at the scene. It was completely quiet. It seemed there was nothing else that needed to be done. As I looked at my old friend I saw he was smiling and I clearly felt his unique presence. I asked him, “B is this really you”?
He answered, “I don’t know what I am”. We stood together saying nothing for awhile and then it was time for me to go.
On the return, while passing through F21, I again arrived near the stone dwelling as earlier and so I rested there; wondering about the meaning of the structure. Why am I encountering this I thought?
I perceived a cobble-stone path, wide enough for maybe a very same cart. That passed the dwelling and proceeded into the distance.
As I stood there I became aware of a stone wall, about chest height on my left. This flanked the left edge of cobble path leading to the dwelling’s gate and I stayed there considering the image.
Tuesday AM 1st Session for the Day
I quickly arrived in focus 27; finding myself on higher ground, seeing the beautiful shoreline and cove in the distance. This scenic ocean extended before me to the horizon. We were directed in this lesson to follow the narration but I found it was impossible to leave this particular place.
I saw my old friend B again but he appeared detached, completely unaware of me. Then a light-being arrived hovering before and above me. I would describe it as an ovoid-like brightly illuminated cloud. It’s glow was a bright yellowish-golden color.
In this light-cloud I could just barely make out that something was in it as the cloud was translucent but too bright to look deeply into. I nickname these light-forms 27GuideGPS for reasons that will become apparent below. This light-being explained to me B was resting and so I inferred there would be no contact with him at this time, but concerning this I’m wasn’t sure I fully understood what the light form related to me. Then as if a matter of business it seemed the light-being informed me that it was there for me and so we drifted away together.
We traveled what felt to be a short distance and came to a large structure. The structure appeared to me as an earth-berm feature settled deep in a large grassy knoll. We moved down-slope toward the entrance of this facility which appeared as an auditorium or lecture hall-like structure while still having the feel of being a sort of civic center. We stopped at the entrance level.
As I looked at the entrance I observe two massive pillars of single level height; one at each end of the entrance. The earth-berm structure was set low in the ground and the front lawn of it had an outdoor amphitheater-like landscape.
From our vantage point the grassy amphitheater-like slope rose up from the center’s entrance area below us. As I was examining the structure the light-being said to me, “You will come here when you are to prepare for the time your next phase arrives”. I understood this pertained to the end of my current phase. At this time I was able to completely understand what was being referred to as it appeared I already knew something about this. After being there for a time, looking at the structure, I left.
When I returned I found it felt like I was gone much longer then I expected.
Tuesday 2nd Session
In this exercise we were directed to create a personal place for ourself in focus 27. This is what TMI calls one’s Special Place but I refer to as a SP27 in my notes. The idea is that one conceptually creates a personal home-away-from-home construct that one may return to while in the F27 environment.
As I proceeded from focus 15 to F21 I stopped to setup my pick-code (mnemonic) for F21. The pick-code, or what I call a mnemonic discussed in the information section, is a bookmark so to speak that one creates to associate with locales or focus-levels. At this time I felt a need to stay in F21 and absorb as much rest as possible. The feeling of being emotionally taxed in these environments was growing by the session.
As I stood there resting an old man approached slowly on the familiar cobble path that is bordered with a mix of lush green grasses. He wore a large hood that draped down such that I could not see his face. As we met he said to me, “We have much to discuss later….”, continuing to walk away. I watched him walk into the distance and wondered what that meant5.
As I headed into focus 22 I felt a drag, as if something was trying to grab me, or a sort of friction. I pressed on and found myself looking up and down the pebbled coastline in this image of the sea, I’ve been encountering typically.
I noted the long empty shoreline lead on forever in both directions. I drifted up higher and eventually saw the curvature of the Earth and again I identified the familiar sunbeam of light that I’ve followed before. Following this I found myself above the Earth’s atmosphere, looking out into space, but here I determined to continue into focus levels 24-26 mentally deciding to not drift away. How odd.
As I enter focus-levels 24-26 I became aware of images that appeared and then faded away. One was an abandoned city, but then I saw a door that lead somewhere. Next I saw an Indian village of the 18th century I guessed; then something like an Aztec symbol passed by me. Lastly I saw in the distance the skyline of a large city that appeared to be ultra modern. It shown silver-like spires of skyscrapers in the distance gleaming as a tight collection of large sleek structures jetting into the sky, that was brightly prominent.
When the images passed I emerged into F27, again arriving at the familiar view of the cove and sea I’ve encountered here previously.
My friend B was there and we were able to be together, enjoying the peace, beauty, and the absolute wonder of the place. For some reason I began to tell B about the things I had been encountering with my hemi-sync experiences since he had passed. We had talked about these experiences extensively before he went into hospice months ago. At the time he was fascinated with the telling of my experiences.
Then, wishing to test my own experience, I asked him if there was a way he could validate our encounter, that it was authentic. I asked if he had a message for his sister that I might deliver to her but he appeared completely uninterested in his former earthly life and all its involvements. This in itself convinced me this was truly B.
Looking over my shoulder I saw there was a fantastic mountain range behind us and so I said to B, “Wouldn’t those be something to climb”? I saw a gleam appear in his eye, a hint of happiness and interest in that moment. This too convinced me this was in fact B. We had both been climbers in our lives. B did some truly outstanding climbing in his lifetime.
Next the narrative instructed us to create a wonderland for ourselves in F27, one’s Special Place. This struck me as completely immaterial and unimportant. I had no interest in fabricating any such thing and ignored the narration.
Then a light-being arrived. Again it appeared as a glowing cloud or capsule of light in the sky hovering above and before me. It direct me it had something to show me and requested I followed it. I seemed to naturally find myself flying to keep up with this figure. That may result from some remnant memory of experiences; Raphael dragging me away; making me get use to travel.
We started to ascend; proceeding to ascended higher still. This continued as the guide led me higher and higher. This went on for a long time.
As we continued going ever higher I wondered what this (distance) could possibly mean but since the experience was so clear I didn’t question it and continued to focus solely on following the guide.
After a time I saw we were approaching an immense light above us. I had no idea where we were or whether we were even in focus-level 27 any longer. The light-being stopped. I understood from it I was suppose to continue upward alone.
I headed straight up and came face-to-face with an immense light; as if I could touch it. It was like staring at a huge ceiling of brilliant light that also seemed massive, solid.
I paused to look at it and then something I had never known before said to me, “You should know that we love you…. Be at peace, and peace – you may have”. I appealed to the voice to please speak plainly to me (not wishing to loose any of this content due to some defect of my own understanding). Next, I was lifted in the light.
I examined it and was engulfed by it. The place I found myself in was brilliant but I quickly became able to apprehend it as I consolidated. I was in something like a bright fog of light. I could only see my immediate surroundings but I was definitely standing on a floor and as I looked at it, I noticed the floor went on and disappeared in the foggy surroundings. I had the sense that wherever this was … it was vast.
I detected someone walking toward me out of this bright foggy light. I had the impression this individual was female but the image of her was lost as she was even more brilliant then the surroundings. All I could observe were her lower legs and feet. The rest of her image was completely lost in her own brilliance. I could see fabric draped about her feet indicating to me that this entity was wearing something and giving the impression of a human-like form in the light.
Then she spoke to me saying. “There will be a Great Recovery of the Earth. It is important you know this. This will be a large focus of your purpose. Be undeterred. Be yourself and all will go well. It is important the Earth be recovered. This is the work of the Master Creators”. Then she turned away and immediately, the narration interrupted beginning the exit.
The encounter was vividly clear and I was stupefied with amazement.
Tuesday: 3rd Morning Session – Focus 27
In this session I left C1 the usual way, however when I entered F15 I saw a single row of armored beings – nonEarthly. They stood absolutely still and did not appear to pay any attention to me. It was simply amazing.
I’ve never seen anything that resembled this type of armor in any museum or sci-fi flic. I also have never seen any type of metal as that used by these figures; at least I think it was metal. They didn’t alarm me but it was quite an unexpected sight and it was very clear.
Passing on, I drifted through F23 as appears to be my practice. I continued to follow the the path of light up into the clouds. To stay on route to F24-F26 I consciously fashioned a visual mnemonic representing a turn, or intersection; one way led to the Belief Territories, the other way slipped into space. I turned, so to speak, toward F24 and allowed myself to drift through levels F24-F26 without pause.
Entering F27 I again found myself looking out from a high vantage point overlooking the coastal region, noting the familiar rocky shoreline cove and the view of the sea that stretched into the distance. I realized my old roommate B was there, or was still there. I walked over to stand next to him on his left. He place his left hand on my right shoulder and we stood together gazing at the wonder of it all – as if there was nothing that required any care. Completion. Perfection.
Then the 27guideGPS appeared and I understood it was time for me to follow. We traversed F27 in what felt like flying high. After a short time we descended to about 75 feet above what appeared to be a coastal plain extending from the shoreline. I was able to view vistas of other places in F27 from our vantage point. We traveled for some distance along this coastline and then I saw something below that was quite odd.
I saw the poop deck of what looked to be something like a 17th century sailing vessel; the stern section stuck in a low hillside. The front and mid-ship portions of the ship were missing, as if broken off, only the poop deck was present; the surviving portion of some wrecked ship. For some reason I found this structure very interesting and thought I should go down and see it.
When I landed I found myself standing on something like sand. There was no mid-section. Before me was the stern poop-deck with its rear stuck in the hillside. I walked up to its ladder and taking a step I paused and thought to call out, “Permission to come aboard?” I heard a loud raspy voice bellow loudly at me, “EYE, Come aBoarrrd!”
I climbed up the ladder to the poop deck and saw a large pirate with large black beard, black hat, and a black patch over one eye. I didn’t know why but I drew closer, curiously to see this figure more clearly. Then he too took a step toward me. I drew closer yet, and he also took another step closer to me. We were face to face about a foot apart, staring at each other. Then the pirate leaned forward coming even closer to my face and slowly …. he lifted his eye-patch to reveal – a perfectly good eye.
Then the pirate began to roar with laughter at me as if enjoying some prank and I realized this was my very close decease friend DV who died about 5 years earlier. Appearing to be greatly amused he continued to roar with laugher and very soon I was laughing too; both of us laughed and laughed for a long time.
{Note: About thirty years prior my friend DV and I met while students at the same university. I was invited to a Halloween party at DV’s house. He and one of his friends were dressed as pirates; having a great time. As they finished each can of beer they would throw the empty can at the TV tube, booing and cursing the device for showing them garbage. It was a drunken spectacle at the time. I should add that if we lived another time in another place I image my friend DV might very well have been a pirate; a thoughtful pirate though.
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We eventually settled down and were able to stop laughing and then we just enjoyed the view. Then DV paused and apologized explaining he was sorry he left abruptly when we met several months earlier in focus 21. At that time, he had crossed over to visit me, or was brought to visit me, and at that time he told me what it was like when he died6. After a few words he left that brief F21 meeting. At this time he explained he left that meeting because he just had to get back here (F27).
Standing together on the poop-deck he added, “I gotta thank you for what you did”. I explained no thanks was needed. He went on to explained, “I always thought if anyone would make it, it would be you”. I replied, “I don’t know too much about that yet. I’m not sure what I’ve made of any of it”.
Then he crushed a beer can in his hand, that I just noticed, and flung the can into the corner of the deck again roaring with laughing. “Doesn’t matter if I have a beer or not. No effect. It’s always great”, he said and we both started to roar with laughter again for awhile. We just couldn’t stop laughing.
I asked him about (what Robert Monroe called) the Park and Reception areas. He said, “Yeah all kinds of stuff is going on there but I’m not interested in that”. I asked how Hank (DV‘s dog) was and DV said he’s around here somewhere. Then it was time for me to go and we parted.
On the return while passing through F21 I needed to stop and rest again. This need to recover was becoming a growing problem that was beginning to worry me. Although there is tremendous rest and peace in observing the perfect state of focus 27 for some reason when I come to 21 this feels more like home to me and so I stayed here for awhile.
Tuesday ~ 4:00PM : The 1st Official Retrieval
This session was our first opportunity to use TMI’s ‘method’ later utilized throughout the course for soul-retrievals. The specified procedure is to first go to F27 and presumably acquire a 27guideGPS who one expects knows where a soul-retrieval is needed. The 27guide leads one to a retrieval target somewhere in F23. The goal is to retrieve the individual and assist with the continuation of their migration to the Belief Territories or F27. Of course, this is not the only way a retrieval is done.
Before the session started, when I was in my CHCK unit waiting for the session to begin, even before the hemi-sync began, my eyes open, there were a number of lights floating with me in the unit. This was reminiscent of my week during the Gateway Voyage course when my CHCK unit would be astrally or ethereally vivid even before the hemi-sync would start; that lasted the whole week during that course. Another odd aspect at this time was I knew B would be there to meet me in F27 but I didn’t know why he would be there or how I knew this.
When I got into the session and made it to F27 I found B at the usual spot, but then I also saw my friend DV lumbering up the grassy rise to where B and I were standing. DV is a big guy. He also knew my friend B while in the physical. I understood, again for some unknown reason, that they were both there intending to help in some manner but I had no idea what this meant.
The 27guide I had previously met darted up suddenly and I immediately followed it. The guide rocketed downward and I chased after it.
I’ve started the practice of migrating down through the levels as if diving or falling and so I dove hard and fast in a free-fall trying to keep up with the 27Guide. Soon I became aware of the familiar light below in us F23.
We entered focus F23 and I saw the 27guideGPS take a sudden sharp right turn. I verde hard to follow it and found we were high above an ocean; this appearing to be a common feature I’ve been encountering there or here.
We descended flying along a portion of coastline that I had not seen before. I examined the land below wondering where we were going and then I no longer could see the guide leading me.
I slowed, descending to just above the beach-line and headed inland a bit where I began to see a quant small stucco home. This strongly attracted my attention. I decided to approach the house so I landed and walked toward the home. The closer I got the greater my sense of alarm became. I wondered apprehensively what I may find in the house. How would I know what to do?
Then instinctively I felt the problem was in the tiny attached garage and walked directly to it. I flung the garage door open and thick smokey exhaust billowed out of the garage. Through the smoke I saw the back end of a car. Judging by the fenders it seemed to be from the late 40s.
I rushed into the garage along the driver’s side of the car and opened the driver’s door. Thick exhaust filled the vehicle as well. I couldn’t see anyone, so I climbed in a bit behind the wheel feeling around and found a body laying slumped-over on the front seat of the car, head toward the passenger’s side.
I grabbed the body and pulled a man to an upright position behind the steering wheel. He said in a sleepy manner, “Leave me, they won’t take me”. I answered, “I’m not leaving you”, as I dragged the man out of the car onto the garage floor. He was incredibly heavy.
I began to drag him slowly toward the garage doorway and asked him his name. He replied in sleepy manner, “Thomas…… Mc..Carthy…” I saw he wore a dark blue jacket that seemed as if it was part of some work apparel or uniform of the era.
As I dragged him toward the driveway he repeated in a sleepy distant manner, “They won’t take me…. Leave… me…”. I shouted back at him, “That’s not true and I am not leaving you”!
As I dragged him I suddenly felt a sense of urgency. His dead weight was increasingly difficult to manage. I couldn’t understand why he would be so heavy? Once we made it to the driveway, out of the garage, it became clear to me he was not going to get up so I heaved him over my shoulder to carry him and found his weight to be unbearable.
As I struggled to lifted off from the ground we continued to argue. And then, hardly a dozen feet into the air, I felt the incredible dead weight of the lift, and with that the deadly approach of panic. I can’t carry him the whole way! I can’t do it! He’s too heavy. What do I do now?!
Then two angels appear and they helped me carry him higher, but for myself it was still a difficult weight to made progress even with the two angels. I still felt the sense of alarm at the feeling of his dead weight and my strength was spent.
As we ascended through F23 entering the light I could see, as if far away, my friend B calling out to the man explaining to him that it was true, suicide will not keep him out of heaven7. We continued to struggled with the lift as the argument went on along the way from focus F23 to F27; the man insisting they won’t take him. I was surprised and wondered that we were still carrying him, that he did not travel off to a belief system.
Finally, when we got to F27 the man and I tumbled together onto the ground as it were, as the angels made their final lift. My friends DV and B immediately came to the man as he laid on the ground.
The man just laid there appearing to not understand where he was or what was happening. I sat on the ground next to him utterly exhausted and emotionally spent as I watching my two friends take care of the man. The two angels hovered nearby.
In a length of time that I could not guess I saw the man was sitting up and he seemed to begin to apprehend where he was. B and DV appeared to have things under control. Soon they had the man standing between them as they slowly walked away on the F27 grassy slope.
I continued sitting, laying there, desperately trying to recover, to rest as much as I could. The two angels continued to hovered nearby but I was too exhausted to give them much thought, but then I saw Raphael approaching in the distance. As he got closer I realized it wasn’t him. I felt confused in the fatigue.
When this individual got close it paused and called to me, “I am Gabriel. I told you we would send you God’s strength. Well done”. Then he and the two angels left me alone and were gone.
I laid there stunned, shocked, mortally drained. After a long time I felt it must be time to go. As I descended to F21 it felt like I blacked out. I was largely unaware of the descent and found myself as if waking, laying on the cobble path near the stone dwelling I had been seeing. Did I fall?
I slowly stood up still feeling completely stunned. I leaned over, resting my upper body on the stone wall adjacent to the path feeling the relief of its warmth as I tried to rest. Then someone came up to me and said, “You need to stay here”. So I stayed there trying to regain some energy and perhaps find some sense of peace but I was mortally spent.
Then the old man I had seen previously on this path came along. As I looked at his vague appearance he pulled back his hood and I saw the long gray hair and beard; the Gatekeeper I thought exhausted. After a moment he explained, “You must come back and we will talk”.
Eventually I left and exited to C1 where I found myself in my CHCK unit exhausted, emotionally spent. As I sat up in my CHCK unit my chest ached terribly, hunching me over, as I sat on the edge of my bed; now alarmed a bit.
Tuesday Night Session
Before this session began I still felt drained and with that I felt a deep dread of doing another rescue. I didn’t think I could handle any more loss of energy. When I enter the session in focus 12 I was very surprised to find part of the angelic guard gifted to me many months ago standing in two rows facing forward, myself positioned in the middle between them. I had no idea why they were in this formation.
When I got to focus F27 I found B. I could also see DV. Their expressions were very clear as B said to me, “You can sit this one out if you want”. DV agreed. That seemed like a good idea to me as well. Then B said, “We’d like to show you something”, and so I walked with them down the grassy knoll, but as we walked I noticed I was losing my perception; things I could detect earlier were confused and then everything seemed to darken.
In a few moments I said to my friends, “I think I’m gonna go”. I turned around and headed back for the knoll. I dove off my landing area into the beyond and immediately the 27guideGPS zipped past me. I continued a free-fall descent down through the levels pursuing the 27guide. I saw the bright light below in F23 and entered it feeling emotionally numb. The guided headed left rocketing away and I followed.
I saw we were high over some tall buttes similar to those of Arizona or southern Utah. However, these buttes were not an arid scene. They where heavily forested. I had never see a landscape like this as the buttes were covered with trees and all green. The 27guide led downward and then it disappeared. I descended and soon landed among the trees in a forest.
It was thick with trees like a grove of large aspens. The forest was tight with very tall mature trees; uniform trunks about 10″ diameter. There were tall slender younger trees mixed in among them. There was no path or any sense of direction. The ground was covered by long lush grass. There were no shrubs nor bushes.
I wandered around the trees having no idea what I should be looking for. What could I possibly find here I wondered. As I wandered about, looking around the trees, I noticed something on the ground slumped against the trunk of one tree. I walk over and had to study the figure hard to figure out what I was seeing. I realized this was an Indian women who died in childbirth. She sat there leaning against the tree and showed no recognition at all that I was there. She would not look at me.
I didn’t know what to do since I had no idea what was suitable and I was aware I had no way to communicate with her. But then I found I turned into the appearance of as an Indian chief which struck me as inappropriate since I have no association with Naive American heritages.
Suddenly from behind me, emerging from among the trees, a small group of Indian men floated toward and past me as if ghosts. They took the women away. I felt a sense of assurance because in the past while in the belief regions I had seen an Indian camp. I thought to followed them up but lost sight of them.
When I returned to F27 B and DV were there so I went to stand with them for a time when a group of simply dressed Indians approached. They were nothing like what we would imagine from American Westerns. They stopped just down the slope from us and then one walked up to me. He placed a necklace that seemed to be made from hide and bones over my head and around my neck. Then he turned away without saying anything and they disappeared.
During the exit when I got to F21 I still felt urgently spent. The Gatekeeper and now also Raphael were there, and again there was the small stone dwelling. Both entities rested their hands on me for a moment which seemed to steady me. The Gatekeeper said that I should come back here to rest. I looked at the door of the dwelling. It had a heavy wooden door and the arch over the doorway had ivy growing on it. After a few moments I resumed my return.
Passing back through focus F15 I was surprised to again find the armored soldiers that I had seen previously. Passing them I entered F12 and also found the angelic guard arrayed in formation. As before they stood around me, but I still had no idea what meaning of this was. When I returned to my CHCK unit in C1 I was very tired and my chest still ached badly.
Wednesday’s Lesson: Find a deceased soul.
In this exercise we broke into small groups. Each student was directed to write the name of a deceased individual on a piece of paper and place that in a bowl. Each student drew a name. The objective of this lesson was to find that deceased person, learn who they were relative to the person that wrote their name and possibly bring back a message from them. The name I picked was provided by student L.
When the session started I wondered how the heck this was going to work. How am I suppose to do this? From my affirmation statement and through every level I called out the person’s name. As I transitioned through the levels I began to see a face and as the moments proceeded I saw the face more clearly. Eventually I got to some level – maybe F27. I don’t know. In that place a person walked up to me.
This was the person I had been seeing during the transitions. I began to speak with him and he seemed less than friendly. I inquired who student L was in his life and he said it was his wife but there was no feeling from him. I asked if there was any message he wished I convey for him to her and he had none.
I began to think this was very odd and it didn’t feel right at all. He would surely want to send some message if he was her husband I thought. I concluded this was nonsense and figured I’m wasn’t really finding the right person after all, so I left.
When I consolidated in F21 the above individual suddenly appear and try to attack me, but I rebuffed him out to the horizon. I saw him racing back toward me to attack again and I wondered does this fight go on for eternity? But then two guard angels rocketed out from behind me intercepting the deceased figure dragging him away to the horizon. They were gone in an instant leaving a thin trail of dust
Exiting and returning to the group for debrief we all reported what we found. When it came to be my turn to tell student L what I found I announced this person was her husband and she sort of sneered at me. I thought, yeah this was a long shot and then I told her what the guy was like. I told her what he said just didn’t make sense to me as I’m talked to him and then I described him. At this point L sort of freaked somewhat.
Astonished she said, “My God, your psychic”, and went on to explain who I saw was the deceased black sheep cousin in her family – all trouble. The face I describe was how he looked when he died. She explained he was a bullshitter; everyone in the family was fed up with him as he was a sort of low-life. She explained she always wondered what happened to him after he died.
Thursday 9:00 AM Session – Retrievals
At my affirmation exhausted I said, “Just take me wherever is needed”, and I advanced into the session. At focus F22 I lingered to listen as in the precious session I heard a women sobbing desperately somewhere in the focus 22 distance. I heard her again as I came through that level in this session. F22 is a state where for example, the comatose or demented may be, suffering some shattered awareness, perhaps on death’s doorstep. Since I heard her again I resolved to go find her on my return but later I no longer heard her and so I never found her.
Entering F27 I found the deep peace of that environment and spent a moment thankful and amazed to be here. At my landing area I stood waiting, wondering where the 27guide was. When it appeared, it paused for a brief moment, long enough for me to notice that I could detect the faint but bright image of something inside that bright light. This was a rare moment I thought; seeing it clearly when it was not darting around.
Then the 27guide rocketed downward and I raced after it. It entered F23 and turned under and out almost causing me to tumble if I may use that word as I tried to maneuver quickly enough to not loose its lead.
We were heading out to sea but this wasn’t the same ocean abstraction I found myself over in previous F23 sessions. This was like – I was over a real ocean.
It seemed we were heading out over colder water, or moving toward a colder region. I wondered where this could be. Are we were heading out over the North Atlantic? I wondered whether I should be looking for some vessel in the water but that seemed wrong.
Next I thought we must be looking for land and then we began to descend. Soon I saw a large land feature as if a very large island. Could that be Iceland? I had no idea where we were or when we were.
We drifted downward over land and I found we were approaching a clearing in a forested area. It became apparent this was the scene of some battle as I found bodies of what looked like ancient Viking or Celtic warriors I guessed. I don’t know where or when this was.
The figures were littered throughout the area. I found one man with his leg hacked off and a number of other mortal wounds that struck me as common in brutal close quarter combat.
I didn’t know how to appear or how to address this man and so I made myself look as another warrior. I knelt down next to him and asked him what happened. He answered with a lifeless fatigue, “I am weary of war”. I explained, “We may leave now”, and he replied only saying, “I am ready”.
Then, not knowing why, I said, “We shall all go together…”, and as the man and I rose up I saw others from this group of men laying about us start to rise as well; others arrived appearing to assist those men.
As they were leaving I felt I should look around for others. As I looked about the battlefield I saw no one but I walk deeper into the forest that surrounded the area. As I wandered in I found a man sitting on the ground leaning against a tree with many arrows in his chest. I told him it was time to go. He replied, “Thank God”.
As we passed upward through F23 I watched this stream of souls and stopped at the light to wait for everyone to arrive. Then someone said to me, “You may go up now”.
Arriving at my F27 landing area I saw cloud-like wisps entering and flowing by. After a moment I turn to a basin of water I had fashioned at my landing area during an earlier trip. I used it to splash water over my face; try to refresh as in previous sessions but when I returned to C1 my chest still ached badly.
Thursday Morning: 2nd Session
In this next session we were instructed to go to the healing/regeneration aspect of focus F27 and observe. It was suggest that we ask for a personal healing.
Entering F12 I noticed that my chest felt better. Once I got to F27 I looked around for something that might impress me as being the regeneration center. Then something struck me as odd.
I found a large group of Ponderosa pines. The ground beneath the trees was carpeted with pine needles. Just beyond the first trees in the group I saw something like a forest service ranger’s cabin.
I approached and walked up onto a small wooden porch, then entered through a screen door. Inside, the structure was much bigger and I saw aisles with various treatment areas on either side of those various aisles. It was hard to perceive and comprehend. Some areas had what looked like treatment tables. Another area looked like a reading or study sitting area.
As I walked down one aisle I saw a sitting area that I thought was for something like meditation. I also saw a hollow toroid shaped room with small opening for an entrance. It was like a pumpkin shaped booth and it was pure white. Seated around its interior wall were individuals sitting in a glowing bright light.
I sat down on one of the aisle benches to observe the activities. At that time I saw student K and called her over. She came over and sat down with me on what seemed to be a bench. I thought I saw another student walking across the facility, and then possible yet another one. After some moments I remembered I was suppose to pursue an healing experience and so I left the bench.
Heading down the aisle I encountered what I call a Tall Being (TB) that reminded me somewhat of an alien species from a Star Wars movie, or maybe some movie about Mars8 but the TB certainly did not look like either of those movie characters. I say this to allude to its appearance.
The being was tall, nearly seven foot and clearly alien (I don’t like to describe species too specifically as I wish to avoid fueling Internet craze). This was the first time I met a alien species in what I expected to be a human environment (F27 is not solely inhabited by humans. It certainly is not administrated by humans).
As I faced the TB another TB approached. The first TB put its hand on my head and I could feel energy entering my head. Next I saw what I guessed is my aura. These two TBs, each standing on opposite sides of me, pulled something off of me like my silhouette – separating it from me – sliding it forward before me. It appeared dark or dense and had an outer coronal glow. The second TB started working on the aura, while the first being maintained his hand on my head. Then the first TB said to me, “You need to come back many times…”, as the second TB added, “Many wounds this one has…”.
Then I began to feel oscillations, as if a resonance between my aura and myself was ringing. After a moment the second TB put its right hand on my left shoulder. The first TB places his left hand on my right shoulder. Then working together, as they faced each other, they slowly drew my aura or whatever, back into me. As this took place I felt a number of resonances occurring between my aura and myself. When they were finished I felt normal and ready to go but on my return my chest began to arch again9.
When I got to F12 I was aware of some large white entities facing me, vague, just beyond my clear perception, but there was no interaction.
After this session when we gathered for group discussion I asked student K about her experiences and she did remember someone called her a bench and that she sat with someone but she could not detect who that was. She also commented on seeing the same toroid shaped white treatment rooms as I had described above.
Thursday AM: last morning session – a free flow 27
A free-flow session is one in which hemi-sync coding is provided with minimal narration. The idea is that one use that session for whatever purpose one has in mind.
Entering this session I felt good. My chest felt rested, restored, but as I migrated up though the levels I began to feel tired again. At F21 I stopped and enjoyed looking at the stone dwelling I had been encountering. I tried to understand the meaning of this structure. What does this have to do with me? Am I able to stay here? I regret not being an artist as I would have like to draw it.
Passing through F22 I detected nothing this time. Passing thru F23 I saw a body laying in the surf and tag it to find later. I began to feel more tired the whole way. This lead me to think I should go to the recovery center again.
Passing through F24-F26 I detected pyramids in the distance, then churches…. There was also the city in the distance mentioned earlier. Lastly, of all the unexpected things, I saw an image of the Bear & Bull of Wall Street.
Arriving in F27 I met B at my landing area. I explained that I need to go to the healing/regeneration center. Once there I again found the area of Ponderosa pines but I was so tired I had to lay down in the Pine needles. I stayed there, just resting for awhile. After a short bit I got up and went inside. Entering the Center there was someone that resembled the role of receptionist. This figure greeted me and ask how they may be of help. I answered, “I need to rest. I’m exhausted”. This figure replied, “We have just the thing. Follow me…”.
We walked past a variety of stations in which people were being helped in different ways it appeared. I noticed a TB assisting someone. We passed by the same type of toroidal booth seen earlier but this unit seated only one. I was led to a small door that opened onto a very small balcony. I was directed to go in and sit down.
Once seated I found I was looking out over the railing of a small balcony that had room for a small cafe style table that seated one.
I noticed the craftsmanship was beautiful as I sat by myself at this small table. Here I found I was looking out at rocky escarp like landscape that descended to the ocean. As I looked I saw this steep near vertical landscape was dotted with similar sitting areas of various sizes. These small sitting porch like structures were set in the mist of dense ivies draped on the landscape feature supporting the sitting areas. Below I saw the ocean washing into a small cove. I sat looking at the beautiful scene, a perfect combination of sky, land, and sea.
Then a TB arrived, entering this small alcove it offered me a beverage. It handed me a large cup of something that was warm to drink. I greeted him, or it, and accepted the beverage. When he left I tasted the drink with a small sip. I felt its warmth penetrating and refreshing my whole being. I sipped more and in a moment I gulped the whole drink down. Then I continued to sit, rest, and absorb the beautiful view. Then two other entities arrived.
One entered my small balcony. I could not figure out what it or they were. It looked like a moving articulate bush that had more of a tree-like character about it. It moved behind me and placed its branches on my shoulders, as if resting its limbs. This was all it did, positioned its branches on me and let them rest there. I continued to sit and felt free of disturbance or distraction. I just rested while looking at the landscape; watching the light reflect off the ocean in the distance. It was perfect.
In time, the plant or tree-bush being left and I eventually felt I was ready to go. As I stepped out of my booth, I found an attendant outside the doorway of my unit. I didn’t realize this individual had been there apparently the whole time available to assist.
After I left, walking across F27, and the closer I got to my staging area the more I felt like I was getting low on energy again, so I walked slowly to B. I said goodbye to him and then realized how truly difficult going back would be. When I started my return dive I turned into a cloud and descend much more comfortably in that form. I never thought to try this before.
Drifting downward without effort I was able to recover the peaceful sense I had acquired at the treatment center. Descending to F24 I collected myself to descend directly to my entry point in F23. Passing through F23 I descended to that seeming sea as a fog had drifted inland, allowed myself to sink through F22 still as a cloud. When I arrive at focus 21 I took on my normal form.
I stayed for awhile in F21 and in time I glided down to F12. I stayed there experiencing a mixture of a deeply restful peace and a hint of fatigue. There was no hurry to do or say anything.
Thursday 4:00PM. Our last Voyage.
In this session one is instructed to allow one’s awareness to expand as far as one is able. Initially I found myself above Earth in space. Soon I encountered something that said to me, “Come up higher…” I struggled with doing this. Then I saw the Gatekeeper, Raphael, and Ethereal standing together looking at me. It was as if they were iconic images hovering in space. Again something said to me, “Keep coming higher”. I became aware that I was rising and I saw my mentors fading far below me.
Then I came to sense a new awareness as I was becoming present on the scale of space far beyond my comprehension, beyond perception. I felt completely blank and still I heard something say to me, “Continue… Continue to come up higher… Give us your mind…”
I struggled to communicate asking for help with my my perceptions since ‘I’ was becoming more blank, surrounded in blackness. There was this flatness of being I felt. Again I heard, “Give us your mind”.
Then I felt part of me was going out-of-body, of my … out-of-body state. It was like becoming – abstracted, distilled, reduced. I have no reference for describing this form of being. Then, for the briefest moment, perhaps only milliseconds, I saw – I saw beyond creation – and I was with Master Creators for an instant.
Then they were gone and I found myself receding.
—- End of the Lifeline Course —-
Following this course I continued to meet some of the characters encountered above, most notably the hooded figure with the long gray hair and beard. That figure’s identify is explained in: Collection: The Wizard and the Gatekeeper. I also continued to meet the TBs whom I’ve become quite attached to. There were also encounters with what I call associates of some Master Creators, namely The Intellect Engineers.
I also met my friend DV more times and continued to meet my friend B until his transformation. At that time I was allowed, I guess, to see him transform into something I simply cannot explain. It was beyond comprehension and words.
A Couple of Post Lifeline Course Retrievals:
Saturday 4/4/15 Home from LifeLine
Now home I find most everything is dark. This is certainly disappointing and so I’ve been bummed-out for the most part. Its hard to adjust to this familiar apartment and routine now that I am back.
Near the end of the Lifeline seminar week I saw the body of someone on a beach so I tagged it for retrieval for when I got home. Now I’ve thought about that person a few times so rather than get back into my normal routine (unpacking, cleaning up, etc) I thought I should go back without delay.
In my session I immediately noticed I did not have the quality of perception that I was experiencing at TMI. I disregarded this for the moment as I worked my way back to F27 and consolidate there. From my landing area I dove and quickly intercepted a 27Guide as it darted past me. Part of me wondered whether I was simply recreating the images of the body on the beach but then the 27guide darted off in a direction that I would not have anticipated and I found I needed to focus carefully on it to keep up.
This increased my confidence level in the authenticity of the experience. Then again we went in a slightly different direction than I anticipated as the 27 guide brought me to the body which was laying face down in the sand on the beach; gentle waves washing up near its feet.
Getting closer I could see it was a man and the shirt particularly caught my attention due to the dark horizontal strips on it. Turning the body over I recognized this man was a sailor by trade, again from a time in the past 19th century or very early 20th century I guessed. I didn’t know what country the clothing represented. I asked him what happened and all he said was “…all hands are lost”.
I asked if he was ready to go and he explained he was sick of lying in the sand so I lead him up. As I led him into the light he said, “It’s real!”, and I replied, “Yes”. He repeated himself a number of times and seemed to grow in what I would call joy and excitement. Then he proceeded ahead of me and entered the light. As I followed him I saw he veered off to my left into the belief regions as if he know exactly where to go.
Returning to focus 27 I stayed there doing nothing; to bask in peace and rest. I had no objective other then to consolidate and remain in this sense of peace. In time I realized I have not see my familiar mentors here in F27 and wondered what sort of guidance I would find if they don’t come here. Then someone quite clearly said to me, “We will serve that purpose and will provide you with the necessary information when the times comes. The others you are thinking of are carrying out their purposes in the other levels as you call them”.
I recognized this voice as the same voice that spoke to me earlier during the Lifeline course Tuesday, about the Great Recovery. Along wIth this I realized that roles and purposes continue to carry on without me. Since that was all the communication provided, and after staying a bit longer, I left my platform to return.
April 6th, 2015 Trying to Re-establish Contact.
In this home session I was trying to re-establish contact, to get back to F27 beyond the Belief Territories where individuals arrive for reorientation, healing, and adjustment. I was hoping I might absorb some good energy.
In my affirmation, I first thanked all Those I Know – both great and small – for giving me this moment of awareness with them and voiced how tired I was of my nominal existence. I’m sick and tired of grocery shopping, laundry, going to work; taking care of all these trivial petty tasks that consumes this existence. With that I expressed my need to go to the healing/regeneration aspect but I also stated I was willing to do whatever else was deemed more important.
Staging in focus 10 as usual, I was getting ready to go to F12 when someone said to me, “We desire you perform a rescue for us at this time”. I agreed and explained I would likely need help with clear sight of the rescue area and also requested that an understanding be provided of the situation I was walking into.
Eventually I got to F21 and although I could not see the area very well it was a joy to see the cobbled path that I had previously observed the Gatekeeper walking on. I resolved to come back and spend time talking with him as he directed. I had the feeling that now we would have some conversations that would help me understand. I enjoyed looking at the cobble path as it faded into the distance.
Then the narration guided me to F22 and beyond. In F23 I looked for the person to be rescued but I couldn’t figure out where the person was. It occurred to me the person was in a building, a high-rise in some city somewhere. I tagged that thought and continued moving on.
Arriving at F27 I found my deceased roommate B and before I knew it the 27guide appeared for the rescue and darted away. Without delay I raced after it. Very soon we passed back into F23. I considered for a moment that I’ve always found this level to be tranquil, a peaceful place. It never impressed me as a bad place to be.
The 27Guide seemed to be darting around. I found I got a bit confused concerning where we were going but in a moment I found myself standing in a long hallway. The hall looked like that of a hotel or a motel. It was a simple or economy facility judging by the appearance. I drifted down the hall wondering where I should go.
There were doors on each side of the hall and then I came to look at room #514 on my left. I knocked then slowly press the door open. The room similarly impressed me with the sense that this was a low cost hotel room. I saw the back of a man sitting at a round table looking out the hotel window. His back was to me. He held a revolver in his right hand; resting hand and gun on the table. He looked as if he was thinking about something.
I walk up to him and suddenly he turned and pointed the gun at me, but then he set it back down on the table. I asked what he was doing. He explained he was trying to decide whether he should kill himself. I responded, “You already have”. He looked surprised, puzzled.
I place my left hand on his right shoulder and explain we may go now if he wished. He still seemed surprised and then a few assisting agents drifted into the room and together they left peacefully.
I found myself alone in the room and then I drifted out the window. I looked down and saw I was in a high-rise beach-front hotel, although I didn’t know what coastline I was on. From there I head up to the light and exited.
Quickly I proceeded to F27 heading to the healing/regeneration area. I found myself at the ponderosa pine forest and walked into the Center. Again I met someone that served as a sort of receptionist and explained I was there for another treatment. This individual felt female and she led me down the same aisle I’d been down before. There she directed me to wait on a bench. Almost immediately one of the TBs (Tall Beings) was there. It requested I follow. We went to the same treatment area I’ve been in before, the one where my aura was worked on during the Lifeline course.
A TB standing across from me said to the one that led me in, ” Ah. This one…”. The other TB added saying to me, “It’s good you have returned”. Then again, my aura was separated from me. I reflected that what was separated may somehow be my soul. I wondered for a moment about the semantics of this.
During this procedure I rested and watched both TBs work on my aura. I could only faintly perceive it at this time. After awhile they merge my aura back into me but this time I did not seem to feel anything. When it was time to leave the Center I felt like a dirty coal-mine worker with headlamp and lunch-box resigned to go labor in the dark. I wished it felt better than this – going back.
Leaving, I passed back thru F23 and again felt how peaceful that place is, where souls pass out of their earthly lives. I breezed back through F21 and home to C1. Exiting C1 I found I actually did feel better. It felt like things were more peaceful. I wasn’t as stressed by the sense of time in this World. It seemed ok to continue now, to be back to normal.
- As a quick orientation: F22 is often considered to be a region where the presence of minds encountered is one of confusion and possible distress; the comatose perhaps lingering at death’s door. F23 is the state one finds oneself in when one dies. Focus 24-26 is a region coined the Belief Territories. It represents constructs defined by human consensus views of heavens, hells, and everything in between. An individual’s consciousness may gravitate to some construct in these regions that agrees with the expectations of their beliefs, but it is important to keep in mind that no one knows the complete workings and purpose of these territories. It is thought, individuals are not confined there by anything other then themselves. They are free to leave or migrate to other areas. It is also important to note that after death an individual does not have to go to the Belief Territories (BTs). They can proceed directly to Focus 27, a region of consciousness that is beyond the BTs. Focus 27 is considered to be the limits of the Earth Life System (ELS). ↩
- A free-flow session is one in which there is no predetermined objective or planned lesson for the session. One is provided this time to purse the focus environment however one wishes. ↩
- I was puzzled about the white appearance of our Sun which seemed wrong to me in this experience, questioning whether it was authentic. I knew our Sun was in the yellow class of stars specifically a GV2 type star which are often referred to as a yellow dwarfs tho slightly hotter then most other yellow dwarfs. In May 2020 I learned our Sun, a G-type star, spectrally does appear white when viewed from space. ↩
- The dragons are discussed in other notes. I first encountered them during my home Gateway Voyage experiences around the time I was becoming aware of the shaman’s world of Earth spirits. Unfortunately I have not yet written a collection about my encounters with Earth and Celestial dragons nor have I explained what they are. ↩
- Later, after this course, this figure becomes a central character. ↩
- DV lived alone and died of a heart attack in his home. It was a couple of weeks before the neighbors realized he was not getting his mail. Soon the police were called to get into the house and they found him. I learned these details from DV‘s brother when I happened to call DV but found DV‘s parents and brother just arrive in Montana coming from Atlanta to take care of DV‘s affairs. DV was about 54 years old when he died. ↩
- During the previous years I had known B he always said if he was going to die and die slowly, he would just off himself; no question, no big deal. In the end he had pancreatic cancer and made the choice to not pursue treatment and to see it through to the end, and so B died in a friend’s home refusing narcotics to dull the pain as he wanted to fully experience his death. My friend DV had seen the darkness of depression up close and had considered suicide at times. Both B and DV, my two best friends, had carefully examined the option of suicide. ↩
- Over the years I have continued to meet the TBs since this Lifelines course. I also have a friend I met in the Exploration F27 course who in recent months also met a TB. He didn’t know I had met them until I offered a drawing of the figures and he confirmed it was the same species that he met while in F27. ↩
- This problem with chest pain was also experienced by some other students. In the post-session group discussion, it was suggested that one inquire as to the source of the sensation; why it was happening. I was also shown in following months how I could successfully treat myself for and others with this ailment by the character I call The Wizard (Collection: The Wizard and the Gatekeeper) ↩