How It Began


I was in the hospital 2014 with a type of heart attack that is said to commonly kill the patient outright. It surprised both myself and the cardiologist that he found nothing fundamentally wrong with my heart although I definately felt like I got hit by a truck. I never thought at anytime that I wasn’t going to be ok and never believed for one moment that I was in any danger – sometimes I just know these things. That’s not to say I didn’t have many months of rehab.

While in the hospital’s ICU I started having the most alarming hallucinations. Whenever I closed my eyes, even for an instant, I would see another reality in perfect clarity1 and realism. It was actually difficult to allow myself to look at these images because they were just so uncanny; the vividness of it, and that it was always there whenever I closed my eyes even for an instant. This was extremely alarming and I became more worried by the visions of this other reality then by being nearly killed; landing myself in the ICU.

I demanded to know what medications the nurses gave me but they just look at me puzzled as they didn’t know what to say. As my sense of alarm grew I came to the mind-set that I could not go on like this. What would I do when I needed to sleep? What would happen then? I spent most of my time in the ICU thinking about this; that I couldn’t live with these perceptions and that there was no escaping them. It was too shocking.

By evening the next day (I had been awake for more then 36 hrs) I was moved out of the ICU and once in a quiet room by myself I decided I had to face this new perception; see where it may lead.

I sat up on the edge of my bed and decided to allow whatever this was to take over. I closed my eyes and immediately I found myself launched out the window of my hospital room. I found myself hovering in the air just outside the high-rise hospital building.

Being extremely startled by that I immediately returned to my room and was greatly relieved to find myself back sitting on the edge of my bed as I thought to myself – that’s a hell of a thing.

I sat there for awhile wondering what this meant. I considered again, still with heightened alarm, that I can’t stay this way but I thought I should test this again, so I closed my eyes once more.

Then in perfect clarity and complete presence of being I found myself just off the coast of Maine; is where I thought I was judging by the appearance of the coastline and trees. It was dark. There was some moonlight.  I apprehended I was approaching the trees from a point of view just off a rocky shoreline, over the water. I felt myself involuntarily swooping down toward the trees on the shoreline then slowing to enter among the tree branches with perfect silence and with precise coordination.

I continued to pass gliding between a couple of branches while noting the rich color and detail of the leaves and branches in the dim light. It was absolutely incredible; being there.

All this was in perfect clarity and in total realism. And as I approached, ever so slowly, to land lightly on a branch, I opened my eyes and instantly found myself back sitting on the edge of my hospital bed. 

I recognized I had been in something else. I just knew it. I was seeing through some nocturnal bird’s eyes. It was absolutely vivid and completely real in every sensation; 100% being there.

Greatly relieved to be back I was finally able to relax since I convinced myself I could get back to normal and so eventually I did go to sleep; if such a thing is possible in a hospital. The next day when I woke I found the new capability was completely gone.

When I got back home from the hospital I called my old roommate and friend B telling him what happened at the hospital. B and I attended the same university and shared an apartment when I was an undergraduate and he was a graduate student in Philosophy. When I described to him what happened B said to me, “Bill, you were having out of body experiences”. I had never hear of this before and had no idea what he was talking about but I recognized the truth of what he said. B directed me to checkout Robert Monroe.

Doing that I discovered The Monroe Institute (TMI) and began to read one of Bob’s books2. I learned more about Bob Monroe’s Hemi-Sync technology; a mixed binaural audio system trademarked by TMI which Bob founded. Along with that I learned of the Gateway Voyager CD set and determined to find out what this was about.

  1. Some years later I came to understand what I was seeing, F21. 
  2. When I began to read one of Bob’s books I immediately stopped reading it. I quickly recognized the potential for his books to influence my concepts and thinking. Somehow I knew to not read about his experiences.