The Illuminating Light (Mar 2018-April 2018)

March 9th 2018

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I went to the AS in F42. As I arrived in the hallway outside my suite I found Anosh w/ Atur standing very close to me, as if they were waiting for me. Anosh was just about one foot away standing close to me with Atur standing just behind her right shoulder. They invite me to their ship which was docked. I went with them and spent considerable time examining the ship’s features (about Atur & Anosh see Collection: First Pleiadian Encounters)

Following days:

Misc training sessions are going nowhere. I accept that I will only focus on the blank slate meditation. One interesting event however, I saw the Crystal Monument which was surrounded by a light hallow and I went to it.

March 14th

I decided to go to AS (Alpha Squared virtual space station) in focus 42 and meditate in my suite. When I got there I proceeded directly to my room and sat down. I decided I would work on my meditations there, here that is. After some minutes I clearly heard, “Company you accept”? I turned around and saw Tellaidian standing in my doorway.

“Yes! Come in Tellaidian! I am happy to see you”, I answered. He walked up from behind me, as I was seated facing the window. He paused on my right saying, “More skilled you are becoming”. (To learn about Tellaidian see Tales of Master Tellaidian)

As he walked around in front of me, then to my left I said, “Master Tellaidian I don’t think I am more skilled. I am ill tempered and quick to jump to conclusions, lacking self control … and – I am not calm as you have directed. There is no skill in this”.

He sat down next to me on my left and after a moment he said, “I will sit with you”. We sat together as I considered the contact with him as I also periodically returned to meditation to be attune to his and any other communications that may come along. I noticed I would get to a point of just being and switch to perceptions; having a hard time maintaining a steady state of singular bi-focus in both modalities. I was getting the hang of it but I could not hold that steady state.

“You struggle”, Tellaidian commented. “Yes”, I answered and continued saying, “Being. Perceiving…. It is hard to just be, and then I also wonder about becoming”. “Yes! Becoming!”, he said as if commenting on some very important point.

After a time as I was worked on my focus he reached out and placed his hand on my wrist. I wondered at that but then suddenly I saw a dark planet, as if I was in orbit above it on the night side – very dark. I looked and noticed a faint hint of light on the limb of the body recognizing that the planet had almost no atmosphere; just enough to just scatter some light. “My planet…”, Tellaidian said to me softly.

I found I was slowly approaching the limb and I noticed the light was increasing ever so slowly as the dark planet’s dawn approached. It was a thin sliver of light growing slowly. I watched this carefully I began to see the first hints of the star that was illuminating this body. After a brief moment suddenly I saw the star itself.

As I continued to drift I could view the whole star clearly and wondered about it. I no longer gave attention to the planet. As I looked at this star I recognized that much waited for this star’s light so that life in various places could drink this in.

Then Tellaidian said to me, “For an individual to prosper, each one needs a light in their life”. “Yes”, I agreed and upon reflection I added, “I understand that there is a tremendous light for me. So much. It is full of meaning, but then along with the strength of that I cannot escape the knowledge that there are contradiction. These trouble me”.

“That is what you call – duality”, he answered. Next I felt him direct my attention to the fact that the starlight shining at the limb of the planet was only partially apparent at first, the whole, only being observed later. Understanding that I commented, “Yes it is the coming time for me when the Light is fully apparent that I look forward to”. After this he got up without saying anything further, and slowly walking across the room he left. I remained there and returned to my meditation.

March 23, 2018

While in mediation an Ancient calls me back. At the Great Hall that Ancient appeared as a bright light. I meet the one that says he is my Ancient father. The Wise One was to his right and seemed to be something like a characteristic, or expression. I didn’t quite understand but I stayed with Them. I’m not going to try to write more.

March 24

Thought I should do a training meditation and went to F21

I really didn’t expect anything and was surprised to meet the Gatekeeper who I have encountered in a long time. He drew me over to visit him at our old meeting place in F21; the park bench under the street lamp. His message…, “You must come back”.

March 31st, 2018

I’ve been doing a number of practice meditations lately trying to ‘get back’ but have not made any progress. If I’m suppose to go back why is this so hard? I have met some contacts in those attempts which I haven’t written about because the contacts were so faint. I don’t know what the truth of those encounters is.

Today I thought to try to get to the Great Hall in the Elohim City. I doubted I could do this on my own given the way things have been going but I’d thought I’d try.

The discussion in this session was long and I can’t remember it all. There was also enough abstract nuance that I can’t put it all into human words.

When I got to F21 things were very faint but I felt I was in F21. I saw two steps at my feet and stepped upward then noticing Yurael who I have not been able to see in a long time. I wondered if she was actually there. I informed her that I could barely detect her to which she said, “I am here to assist you – whenever you are here”.

I wondered where Devenoir was and Yurael repeated saying to me, “I am here to assist you … here”, as if to clarify her scope of mission. Thinking I was getting nowhere I returned to the task of looking for my passage to the Elohim City and found that Yurael was hovering above me on my right as if accompanying me. In time in the distance I saw an angel near my approach area to the City and as I got closer I wondered if this might be Devenoir (I’m always glad to see him) but that was uncertain and then this angel directed me to continue.

I entered the forest boundary and was very happy to be here; I just love this place. There seemed to be a light over the treetops in the night-like sky. I continued and considered that this light was the portal I’ve encountered in the past. When I got clear of the trees I was near the Green Wall and the circular light of the portal continued to dominate my attention. I presumed this meant I was suppose to access the City through the portal as I have in the past. Maybe this portals is always here and I’m just not aware of it.

I wondered how to access the portal; deciding this was the way, and then while standing under the light trying to figure out how to get into it I found I was suddenly in the light and then just as suddenly I found myself standing on the Great Hall’s outer portico.

As I stood there, just outside the row of giant columns, I was able to look out upon the City; a beautiful brilliant place. I stood there for awhile wondering what to do and decided I would walk along the edge of the portico observing. Then suddenly a women appeared to emerge from the Great Hall’s dark interior on my left.

She was beautiful in appearance with rich black hair wearing an elegant flowing silk-like white gown having the appearance of a statuette-like Greek or Roman goddess. I did not think she was an attendant as she appear beyond them in authoritative stature. As she drew closer I turned to her and offered a slight bow in greeting.

In hopes of some introduction I introduced myself and asked what her purpose or role was so that I could understand her. Her only reply was, “I am here”. I repeated presenting this question in various ways but got the same answer as if what she said was all that was pertinent.

Then I asked why we were meeting to which she explained, “You are here. I am – here”. This was a bit frustrating so I tried a different tack of questioning: “Can you explain to me what you are”? “I am – energy – is a word you understand”, she answered. I added, “You appear human-like, can you explain to me what your form is”? “As I appear [to you]”, is all she would say.

As I felt I wasn’t getting anywhere trying to communicate with this entity I considered moving on, to continue walking along the portico looking at the City, but then I thought to ask, “This Great Hall – is it a temple? I sense there is more to this place then simply being a large structure; a parthenon”? To this all she said was, “As you perceive it”.

My thoughts again returned to the idea of walking along the portico as I wasn’t getting many insights from the cryptic yet factual discussion with this individual but then she directed me to follow her as she turned and walked back into the darkness of the Hall’s interior.

As she lead me into the depths of the Hall I began to recognize that this vast place was the same place I encountered during the Lifeline course (when I was told of the Great Recovery to come) and other early experiences I had that where prior to finding the Elohim City and meeting the Wise One.

I wondered about the purpose of this meeting so again I pressed my question regarding her role or purpose or name. Now she answered, “I AM here – guiding you”.

I wondered what I might learn from her if I pressed some questions I have so I ask, “May I ask, I struggle with the conflict about these experiences; whether the constructs are valid – true – what the truth of this is”, and I expressed my conflicted thoughts to her.

She paused and looking at me she said, “You have the understandings … This will take time of your life”. Then she resumed her walk, again directing me to follow.

We walked deeper into the Hall and then I saw something like a fountain with a large bright pillar in it. As we got closer the pillar looked like a column of light emerging, projecting upward, flowing up from within a basin-like construction; as if there was a pool of light in the basin with the column of light emerging upward from it. I looked at it in wondered.

Then She said to me, “This – you have seen before”. And I realized she was correct. This appeared to be the fountain that the Elohim who says she is my true mother had taken me to see a couple years ago (6/19/2015). At that time I could only sense it, while seeing some of its surrounding, observing other Elohim that were coming to attend the event. At that time I knew it, but could not exactly see it. Now I could clearly see it. I also recognized this pertained to the conversation Tellaidian and I had regarding what force powers the Ring that is formed by his three associates.

“This is as you have known it before (this place: a natural occurring supra-cosmic phenomena) but it is not the same as when you are with your friend (Tellaidian). This is Life – The Light – more pure than you encounter with that one (ie Tellaidian).

This Light is that which Illuminates”, and I understood this Light is the light that illuminates the Twelve Pillars: the Complete Purpose and Intensions of the Ancients (F49) that was explained to me during Starlines II (see Starlines II notes). At that time it was explained this is what illuminates the Twelve Pillars creating the unique contrasts in purpose that appear as dualities for each individual pillar.

“I will guide you here”, she stated but then she suddenly disappeared and I was alone facing this upflow of light surging before me. I wondered about touching it but then an attendant appeared on my left saying “DO NOT TOUCH IT – unclean”. As I hesitated considering what that one said another attendant appeared on my right saying, “PROCEED – to know what transpires”. Now faced yet again by a contradiction I decided I would not have been brought here if I wasn’t to investigate, so I reach into the Light.

When I touched the Light suddenly I saw the goddess-like figure standing inside the column of light rising before me and she directed me to enter in with Her. As I stepped into the fountain of flowing light she took my hand and began to lead me.

Now, from inside the Light, rather than appearing as a localized column, I saw that there was no limit or confinement in the spatial extent of this Light while we were in it. Together we proceeded forward.

After a short time we stopped and this entity directed me to look outward. Then as if standing on some sort of precipice I looked outward and saw a huge panoramic view. She said, “This is the Light, Life – all the Universes (noting she spoke in the plural). You may find the answers to your questions here”.

I asked her again what her purpose was and She answered. “I AM … the presence of the Light”. It struck me to ask, “Are you one of Ancients”? “Consider me as a feminine property”, She answered.

“I understand the Wise One, [as] an [expression] [attribute] of the Ancients. Are you a property [of the Ancients]”, I asked? “I AM – the Presence – as you say an attribute – [the] present [projected presence] existence [of the Light]” I was confused as to what this meant though part of me completely understood who and what She was, and again stated, “Here, the answers reside to your questions. Turn to this”1.

I continued looking out as she directed me, wondering what this meant. How would I find answers here? What is this; the underpinning and source of all? How do I inquire of this?

After a time of seeking clarification of the nuances she was enunciating she turned and lead me back. As we walked back through this Light in time I saw we were approaching the outer edge of the fountain’s Light. We stepped through this and were back in the Hall and after a moment, she disappeared.

I proceeded slowly to exit the Hall and found the light portal back. Entering the portal I was instantly returned to C1 without any return process.

April 5th

Incredible 2 hr meditation training w crystals (see: “Feel the Stones” ). I understand what I was being shown in the Great Hall and I understand who the woman was that took me to the Fountain. It is incredible.

April 6th 1 hr meditation. Incredible

April 6th, 2018. The Presence of the Light.

Another meditation; only about 40 minutes long. I had no specific purpose in this meditation but when I got to F21 I didn’t know where to go. Then something compelled me to go to the Elohim City, but I was resistant to what may be a whimsical thought. Then the something insisted that that is my home, and so I went.

Once through the Green Wall I did not know how to proceed so I stood there. No one arrived to guide me. This was odd as it’s been explained to me there generally someone is sent to meet visitors and then I felt a force. I asked what it was. The response was simply, “I AM”.

I felt and knew this was the Great Hall’s goddess-like figure I had met a few days ago but I could detect no form, only its’ presence. Then something seemed to take hold of me and I found I was drifting forward through a wispy-like vague darkness. I had no awareness of the City but after a few moments I saw the Fountain. I understood the accompanying presence was taking me to it.

We merged into the Light and then I was …. I was very far away, or very deep in, and I began to converse with – what or who? It was the individual I met early but now its being was ineffable … it was contact with the Presence of the Light – personified. I think that’s how I’d describe it.

We had an intricate conversation which may nuances. I have general recollection of the basic points of the comprehensions, but it is difficult to put then into a coherent form, so I’m not going to even try.

It was so amazing, yet so very remote, that I’m not sure what I think of it. How do I think about something like this?

April 15th

I’ve been meditating and working with my stones a lot in recent weeks. The stones are quite strong, yet I have made no progress in getting back there and I’m tired of this struggle. Is this one of the times when nothing happens so I really recognize the moment it does?

April 20th, 2018 – New Vision

As I made little progress beyond working w/ the stones for awhile I’ve lost interest in this strife. I guess it will happen when it happens; I’ve got other stuff to do. But then early this evening, I felt it – that light – that I know. I recognized Them. I could feel Them.

I decided to dress up warm, get my camp chair, and go sit outside in the forest. When settled I first welcome all that are with me; those trusted, that faithfully keep station, and I sat down.

As I sat outside I began to see the Great Hall as if looking at it from a great distance, while I could still see our reality around me. I sensed the Wise One there who said to me, “The time is at hand. We are sending others to assist you”. There were many subtle details I’m already forgetting.

At that time I stood up to from my camp-chair looking forward in our reality while staring outward into Their’s also. I found this new experience’s perceptions dicey in terms of control. Next I could see my sister Hera and mother as they stood at the Great Hall.

“Come be with us”, They called out to me from across this distance. “I am willing to be with you”, I called back and opening my mind offering it to them. Suddenly I found myself in their reality standing a few steps below Them on the immense staircase of the Great Hall as my awareness of our reality diminished.

They welcomed me up to the portico level to be Them and Hera said to me, “Welcome brother”. I greeted Them and Hera directed me saying, “Come with me”. She turned and I began to walk with her into the dark interior of the Hall. We walked a short distance and then I clearly saw the Fountain of Light as before.

At this time there were others present; standing as a group in a row. I recognized them. These are similar to, or associated with, the One that refers to herself as the Presence who introduced me to the Light of this Fountain recently. I greeted them saying, “Thank you for accepting me here”.

Then Hera said to me, “We use this for many purposes. You are familiar with how this has been harnessed by those associated with you, those that took you beyond. We will familiarize you with other uses and assist you with this”.

There was considerably more to this discussion but these are the main points of the first portion of the visit; what I saw. I recall being directed to go back (indoors) and go into meditation, so that we may continued our discussion. I recall wondering if there was someplace specific I should go but was told I may do this anyway I chose. And so I went back inside, got a blanket and prepared for a standard meditation.

When I entered meditation and started settling into focus 10 Devenoir was immediately present. I greeted him warmly. As I was consolidating he stated that he would assist me. I moved into focus 12 becoming more settled in my awareness of him. Then he turned as if to lead me and I followed him, determined to stay with him.

As we traveled forward in darkness I became clearly aware of several angels on either side of us. Then Raphael arrived during our trajectory as an authoritative presence but I kept my attention on Devenoir.

Then Devenoir paused our trajectory and we all regrouped together. I wondered why we stopped and had the impression Devenoir was waiting for me to consolidate further but I don’t know for sure. After a moment our whole group headed straight up (as in other times).

We went a short way and I noticed the whole group was falling away from me as I found myself looking back down at them as they receded. I felt something take hold of me, pulling me up. This was reminiscent of other times; loosing an angelic escort that was first acquired upon entering F23 and then loosing that escort at the threshold of F24, as one is about to leave focus 23.

I found myself alone being drawn upward through nothing but soon saw my SP27, so I went to it. I entered it walking over to my favorite spot and noticed Raphael was clearly there. He stepped up to me placing his right hand on my left shoulder and I felt us rise but very soon Raphael disappeared and I found I was alone in an abyss when suddenly I heard, “Greetings”.

Instantly I knew it was the Wise One. I gladly offered a bow of appreciation returning the welcome, happy to be with him. For a time I struggled with the frustration that I could not perceive him but clearly recognized in myself that I know his voice, since actually …. I have never really ‘seen’ Him.

After a moment He said to me, “I wish to show you something”, and suddenly I saw the Earth as if hanging in space. I understood He intended to discuss the Great Recovery.

The Wise One continued, “The mission is commenced”, and as I looked toward His mind listening to him he showed me the Earth Council of Elohim2 as I had recently met them, but now it was as if seeing Them from a distance.

“You will assist them [as they discussed with you] but you must keep your own council and judgement in this matter. You are correct, there are many other interests involved and this matter is far reaching”. I answered, “I’m not ready for this”, but the Wise One countered, “You are fully prepared. Bring all that may concern you to Us [for counsel]”.

“I’ll need your assistance; [please] impart your wisdom [for this task] to me. I do not know these matters [but] I trust you in this. I trust all Those here at the Great Hall and the City. There are indeed many whose goodness I apprehend, [so I] thank you”. In reply the Wise One answered, “You should remember we are with you and we are active. We will send you help”.

Much I can’t remember

“May I ask – a question”? I said. “Yes”, He answered and I continued. “Is a ship coming to meet me”? “If it were not so the Chamberlain would not have said it”, He stated. But I wondered at that. Then He spoke again, “You mind considers the Pleiadians”.

In reply I offered, “It is as the Chamberlain stated…. They are coming. They told me they would come to meet. I seem to know they will be a great help to me”. But He added, “And you will be of great help to them”.

I mutter as I looked back at the Earth, “I hope I may be help to many. There are so many cultures – competing powers”. In response the Wise One concluded, “[….they are] as dust before Us”. I wondered.

“We will send another ship to signal you”, He stated. “Thank you. I feel – the incompleteness. I don’t know – when I’m back there as I know here. The Ancients said I would know but I do not have that”, I complained. “You’re form there is not able to know [as you desire], yet – you will know. You will see this begin, to recognized it. It will become apparent to you. We called you this way (now) so you would understand how this [communications] is [will be like]”. (See June 8th notesThe 2nd Signal Ship (May-June-July 2018)

We were together for a long time. I can’t recall all our conversation. Above are the main points.


  1. She is a property of the Light, not of the Ancients. 
  2. The Earth Council of Elohim (Feb 2018)